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I can't do anything Hannah will be here soon! 4 kids; Bristol, CT, United States 7690 posts
Sep 8th '09

I can't take off my hospital bracelets. I can't even get myself to take a shower. I just feel like crawling in a ball and dying. I can't cry anymore. The house is a mess and I don't have any energy to even clean up after myself. I have to wake up tommarow and start my college classes and i don't even want to do that. I can't go back to work and face everyone who already know what happened. I'm a wreck . I feel like nothing anyone says to make me feel better helps, i feel happy temporarily, and the next im crying or angry again... I know god has his plan and all that.. I just DONT understand why this happened at ALL. I'm a wreck because I can't have my baby back. I'm a wreck because I will never heal from this. I am miserable and I feel like I make everyone feel miserable being around me. I can't help it. I don't have the energy to be strong and try to 'move on and forget' I'm a wreck because I haven't seen my living daughter in over a week because shes been up in New hampshire with her grandparents. I feel like a f**king failure at life. I feel like I fucked up and I blame myself for my miscarriage. I drank, I smoked cigarettes, and did drugs. I want to die at the thought of myself being so f**king selfish and I was selfish for being depressed when i found out i was pregnant again and doing all that unhealthy shit i did because i was depressed. I just want to stop feeling so empty inside. I want to be able to be positive about life but I can't. I don't know what to do.

Eric Jr.'s Mommy 34 kids; Philadelphia, Pennsylvania 1322 posts
Sep 8th '09

in all honesty here... i do feel bad for you to a point but, WTF is the matter with you??? why would you do all that knowing that you were pregnant??

Shannon 18 kids; Ohio 9773 posts
Sep 8th '09

I know that it's easier said than done but you can't blame yourself for what happened.



I'm so very sorry for your loss.



You have to put one foot in front of the other. I was amazed that the sun dare come out each day knowing how sad I was. I felt like the world ended; yet went on without me, all at the same time.

*************** 66 kids; Iowa 33630 posts
Sep 8th '09
Quoting Eric Jr.'s Mommy:
tatooed_mommy Due August 30; 3 kids; Alabama 33474 posts
Sep 8th '09

sorry mama

Hannah will be here soon! 4 kids; Bristol, CT, United States 7690 posts
Sep 8th '09
Quoting Eric Jr.'s Mommy:
Shannon 18 kids; Ohio 9773 posts
Sep 8th '09
Quoting Eric Jr.'s Mommy:
*************** 66 kids; Iowa 33630 posts
Sep 8th '09
Quoting ♥ Shannon 37w4d:
Hannah will be here soon! 4 kids; Bristol, CT, United States 7690 posts
Sep 8th '09

I don't know what to say. I wish I wasn't so stupid to do the unhealthy things i did.. and maybe it was my fault, i really don't know. I'm sorry for even posting this.

Shannon 18 kids; Ohio 9773 posts
Sep 8th '09
Quoting HAMommy
[Gryffinwhore♥] 3 kids; anywhere, bH, United States 37526 posts
Sep 8th '09

wow. way to kick a woman when she's down. :?

OP, im sorry for your loss.

Hannah will be here soon! 4 kids; Bristol, CT, United States 7690 posts
Sep 8th '09
Quoting Momma, V, and baby #2:
*************** 66 kids; Iowa 33630 posts
Sep 8th '09
Quoting ♥ Shannon 37w4d:
Eric Jr.'s Mommy 34 kids; Philadelphia, Pennsylvania 1322 posts
Sep 8th '09
Quoting RIP angel baby:
HippiHobbitMama Due March 15; 2 kids; Savannah, Georgia 2343 posts
Sep 8th '09
Quoting RIP angel baby: