I can't take off my hospital bracelets. I can't even get myself to take a shower. I just feel like crawling in a ball and dying. I can't cry anymore. The house is a mess and I don't have any energy to even clean up after myself. I have to wake up tommarow and start my college classes and i don't even want to do that. I can't go back to work and face everyone who already know what happened. I'm a wreck . I feel like nothing anyone says to make me feel better helps, i feel happy temporarily, and the next im crying or angry again... I know god has his plan and all that.. I just DONT understand why this happened at ALL. I'm a wreck because I can't have my baby back. I'm a wreck because I will never heal from this. I am miserable and I feel like I make everyone feel miserable being around me. I can't help it. I don't have the energy to be strong and try to 'move on and forget' I'm a wreck because I haven't seen my living daughter in over a week because shes been up in New hampshire with her grandparents. I feel like a f**king failure at life. I feel like I fucked up and I blame myself for my miscarriage. I drank, I smoked cigarettes, and did drugs. I want to die at the thought of myself being so f**king selfish and I was selfish for being depressed when i found out i was pregnant again and doing all that unhealthy shit i did because i was depressed. I just want to stop feeling so empty inside. I want to be able to be positive about life but I can't. I don't know what to do.
in all honesty here... i do feel bad for you to a point but, WTF is the matter with you??? why would you do all that knowing that you were pregnant??
I know that it's easier said than done but you can't blame yourself for what happened.
I'm so very sorry for your loss.
You have to put one foot in front of the other. I was amazed that the sun dare come out each day knowing how sad I was. I felt like the world ended; yet went on without me, all at the same time.
Quoting Eric Jr.'s Mommy:
I don't know what to say. I wish I wasn't so stupid to do the unhealthy things i did.. and maybe it was my fault, i really don't know. I'm sorry for even posting this.
wow. way to kick a woman when she's down. :?
OP, im sorry for your loss.
Quoting Momma, V, and baby #2:
Quoting RIP angel baby: