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and there goes number two. Mommy ♥'s Khali Due January 2; 33 kids; Carson, California 522 posts
Aug 25th '09

Idont know if words can even describe how i feel.Really,.. i dont even know how i truly feel. i'm all over the place, im so hurt, sad, depressed.. i cry random times during the day. its just so hard. I feel like such a failure in life. i feel like it was me that killed my kids, and its my fault. i think about them every minute that passes, &i feel like i dont even think about anything else any more.
i'd give my life for just one real moment with them. and it hurts so much knowing that i was never even able to hold or see them.
whats wrong with me? i ask that every day. what the f**k is wrong with me thats doing this. i honestly feel like i'll be depressed for life. &i feel like i'll never be able to have kids

Mama Bird of 3 3 kids; Missouri 6686 posts
Aug 25th '09

im sorry for your loss. maybe you just need to see a Dr and see if theres something wrong. iim sure one day you will have a healthy baby to love. its just not the right time.

Mommy ♥'s Khali Due January 2; 33 kids; Carson, California 522 posts
Aug 25th '09

i was so excited when i found out i was pregnant again, i really didnt intend on going down that path for a long time after my first loss. but i felt like even though it happened way earlier than i ever wanted, it was a miracle for me. i felt like i was blessed with another chance.but i was terrified it would happen again& losing a baby the second time around seems to be so much harder.

Mama Bird of 3 3 kids; Missouri 6686 posts
Aug 25th '09

ive never had a miscarriage so i dont know what you are going through but you will have a baby one day when its time. good luck ^___^

capricorn007 34 kids; Phoenix, Arizona 725 posts
Aug 25th '09

I just had my second m.c. two weeks ago and its very hard, I keep asking myself why can't I have my baby.



I am now talking with my dr to see if there is something wrong she has order all different test to see if there is maybe something, if I was you I would go and talk to my OB and just see what they say.



I am very sorry for your loss and if you ever need to talk I am here for you.

//(* 7 kids; 15400 posts
Aug 25th '09

oh honey... I'm so sorry you have to go though this pain... I have had two myself and can tell you it dose get easier but will always hurt... you shouldn

//(* 7 kids; 15400 posts
Aug 25th '09
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Camerons Mommy :) 1 child; Auburn, Kentucky 456 posts
Aug 25th '09
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