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I miss you Zoom Zoom Zoom! {MBRD} Due April 30 (boy); 18 kids; 1 angel baby; Bridgeport, California 27411 posts
Aug 16th '09

God I miss you.
You have only been gone a week, and I haven't even begun to be able to see past it. Your funeral arrangements are this week, and I wouldn't go if I could help it. But I need the closure, and It'll be televised anyway. Congressmen and senators might go, and I wouldn't want to embarrass you.

My grief for you is like trying to look at the sun. I can only look at it a molecule at a time or it'll engulf me. Most of the day I talk about you like nothing ever happened, but it comes and goes. I need to keep you alive in my own mind.

I see things every two minutes that I want to tell you about. I catch myself thinking 'I should call Allyn and tell him...'. Then I stop because I remember you are gone.

No one in the world could ever be as interested in our daughter as her daddy. She tried to say 'kitty' a couple times today, and there was no one to tell. To anyone else it is just a normal everyday thing. She is only eleven months and she goes around all day saying 'da da da'. How do I tell her about you? How do I tell our next baby? How do you tell her that daddy died in Kuwait with us a million miles away?

What do I do? What the hell am I going to do?

I have people all around me and the world seems so damn empty.

Puff the magic dragon 2 kids; Kitchener, Ontario 13479 posts
Aug 16th '09

Oh momma.

Im so sorry for your loss.

Heket. 2 kids; 4 angel babies; Kansas 31498 posts
Aug 16th '09

I am so f**king sorry...



Your daughter is going to grow up knowing her daddy was a hero! She may be sad she never got to know him, but show her hundreds of pictures and she'll feel as if she does.



You will get through this!

BigBelliedMommy 2 kids; Kentucky 759 posts
Aug 16th '09

oh my gosh hunny, you and your family are in my prayers. I am so so sorry. I couldn't begin to imagine the pain you are going through, and I wouldn't say I could. Take it one day at a time and be strong for your babies. They will always know that their daddy is a hero not only to them, but to this wonderful country.

♥Heather♥ 3 kids; 3 angel babies; Great Lakes, IL, United States 27363 posts
Aug 16th '09
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Zoom Zoom Zoom! {MBRD} Due April 30 (boy); 18 kids; 1 angel baby; Bridgeport, California 27411 posts
Aug 16th '09

He wasn't a hero, though. He was a just a person.
He wasn't a symbol.

He was my husband and my best friend.

Heket. 2 kids; 4 angel babies; Kansas 31498 posts
Aug 16th '09
Quoting stephaniewalters:
Puff the magic dragon 2 kids; Kitchener, Ontario 13479 posts
Aug 16th '09
Quoting stephaniewalters:
Mommy+1+.5♥ 2 kids; Minnesota 1231 posts
Aug 16th '09

I am so sorry for your loss. I dont know what exactly to say, I know NOTHING can make it better now. Both your families, you, your DH and little girls are in my thoughts and prayers.:( Stay strong mama!

Puff the magic dragon 2 kids; Kitchener, Ontario 13479 posts
Aug 16th '09
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Sock Lady 6 kids; 4 angel babies; Hell, ON, Canada 11758 posts
Aug 16th '09

I am so sorry for your loss. *hugs*

Zoom Zoom Zoom! {MBRD} Due April 30 (boy); 18 kids; 1 angel baby; Bridgeport, California 27411 posts
Aug 16th '09

I don't want a damn hero. I want Allyn. I want my husband.

I am not supposed to be alone.

Why the hell did you leave me?

I don't feel like he is 'out there somewhere looking over us'.
He isn't he is just gone.

McPreg Due October 17 (boy); Texas 602 posts
Aug 16th '09

I can't imagine what you're going through. I know these are hollow words, but I am so, so sorry.

Jan~mom of 3 hoping for 4 TTC since Jul 2009; 18 kids; Taylor, Michigan 13259 posts
Aug 16th '09

Oh momma, i am so sorry. I can't even imagine what you are going through right now. There are no right words to say and i know that. But i just wanted to tell you that you are in my thoughts. I hope you know whata strong woman and strong family you have. God bless you and your beautiful children.

Mone™ Due July 12 (girl); 2 kids; Washington, DC, United States 5492 posts
Aug 16th '09

oh I am sooo sorry.... I will definately keep you and your family in my prayers... :cry: