God I miss you.
You have only been gone a week, and I haven't even begun to be able to see past it. Your funeral arrangements are this week, and I wouldn't go if I could help it. But I need the closure, and It'll be televised anyway. Congressmen and senators might go, and I wouldn't want to embarrass you.
My grief for you is like trying to look at the sun. I can only look at it a molecule at a time or it'll engulf me. Most of the day I talk about you like nothing ever happened, but it comes and goes. I need to keep you alive in my own mind.
I see things every two minutes that I want to tell you about. I catch myself thinking 'I should call Allyn and tell him...'. Then I stop because I remember you are gone.
No one in the world could ever be as interested in our daughter as her daddy. She tried to say 'kitty' a couple times today, and there was no one to tell. To anyone else it is just a normal everyday thing. She is only eleven months and she goes around all day saying 'da da da'. How do I tell her about you? How do I tell our next baby? How do you tell her that daddy died in Kuwait with us a million miles away?
What do I do? What the hell am I going to do?
I have people all around me and the world seems so damn empty.
Im so sorry for your loss.
I am so f**king sorry...
Your daughter is going to grow up knowing her daddy was a hero! She may be sad she never got to know him, but show her hundreds of pictures and she'll feel as if she does.
You will get through this!
oh my gosh hunny, you and your family are in my prayers. I am so so sorry. I couldn't begin to imagine the pain you are going through, and I wouldn't say I could. Take it one day at a time and be strong for your babies. They will always know that their daddy is a hero not only to them, but to this wonderful country.
He wasn't a hero, though. He was a just a person.
He wasn't a symbol.
He was my husband and my best friend.
I am so sorry for your loss. I dont know what exactly to say, I know NOTHING can make it better now. Both your families, you, your DH and little girls are in my thoughts and prayers.:( Stay strong mama!
I am so sorry for your loss. *hugs*
I don't want a damn hero. I want Allyn. I want my husband.
I am not supposed to be alone.
Why the hell did you leave me?
I don't feel like he is 'out there somewhere looking over us'.
He isn't he is just gone.
I can't imagine what you're going through. I know these are hollow words, but I am so, so sorry.
Oh momma, i am so sorry. I can't even imagine what you are going through right now. There are no right words to say and i know that. But i just wanted to tell you that you are in my thoughts. I hope you know whata strong woman and strong family you have. God bless you and your beautiful children.