You should know, I am not a crier. I never have been. I believe it has a lot to do with my mother. I had no dad, so she had to be both parents, and I always felt she was more the dad then the mother. She basically always taught me to never show emotion, never show weakness. I don't believe all that bull, it's just been an automatic thing for me since I was young.
I cried. This story truly touched my heart and made me CRY. I think you are the strongest woman I've ever met. I truly feel like I would just wither and die if anything happened to my child, and you are one amazing woman for getting through it. Your story was beautiful, thank you for sharing it with us. I am very touched.
I will always include you in my prayers. I hope you can find peace in knowing your little warrior is in a place where he no longer feels that pain. He will always watch over you and wait for the day he meets his mommy again.
I wish you NOTHING but the BEST if you decide to have more children someday.
Lots of love from a stranger,
So many time i have seen you in forums and wanted to tell you that your son is so beautiful, and he looks like a fighter, but it never seemed to be the right time. I am so sorry for your loss. But thank you for sharing this story. You and that amazing little boy have touched the lives of people who have never even met you. *hugs*
I wish I could reply to each of your coments. I went to take a bath and never expected 4 pages of replies before I got back. I appreciate them all very much and they mean a lot to me. The support I have received from the women on this site has helped me more than I could ever express. I don't know if I would have made it this far without you all. Thank you so much.
Quoting ad astra per aspera:
i just could not stop crying, im soo sorry for your loss. you are a very strong woman.
that was beautiful I havent cryed that much in a long time, you are such a strong women i know your son is proud of you.
there are no words.....nothing I nor anyone can say.....
but you and many of the ladies here like you who live the love/joy and heartache all at the same time are the ones I think of...when I see girls
(including myself when I was self-absorbed and wallowing in self pity)
of going over time, for being sick of myself, for being sick ofthe waiting
and for being inconsiderate of those who are TTC and have been unable to,
by whinging about how "unlucky and uncomfortable" pregnancy is.
I think of you and the S and L ladies more than they know, with nothing but respect and honour.
I wish never to walk in your shoes,
but may I offer a hand to hold should you need it.
I cant type.
Im bawling. cant see.
I wanna hug you. and hold you.
when are you coming home?
ashley... i was crying before i read it as i always do when i see a post about gunner and i am crying now. remember i told you awhile ago that i told my mom about your story and made her cry. well she read what you wrote and sat here in tears with me. then i had to show her gunners pictures. she says you have to be one of the strongest women alive to go through what you did and still beable to face the world.
i could never do it. i am not strong like you. your pictures are so beautiful. i am glad you got them done.
you made the best choice for you and your family. and Gunner will always love you for this. he is no longer in pain.
pm me if you need me.
I think it was a good idea to do this Ashley. I hope it's given you at least the tiniest fraction of peace. He's a lovely angel.. So lucky to have you for a Mommy.