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Due Date tinana+3 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Orlando, FL, Virgin Islands 48318 posts
Oct 24th

October 24, 2020

*g*****c TMI/TRIGGER WARNING*
I want to type this out for myself. I don’t expect or really need replies but I never want to forget. I have to come back and edit because my phone is dumb. Shy

We were so briefly expecting this to be our due date. Instead we suffered our first and hopefully only miscarriage.

The same week the pandemic was declared. The same year that was so horrible for so many. 

We knew on March 13th that there was no cardiac activity. We knew before that because my levels weren’t good.
We knew because when we went in for the ultrasound, I started bleeding. 

March 16th, in the week hours of the morning, I was having bad pelvic pains. I thought maybe if I just laid still the pain would go away and for a short time, it did. I drifted back off to sleep and before I k ew it my husband had already left for work and I was in agony. School was closed due to Covid. I let the kids sleep in and wondered how I would make it through the day with these cramps.

By 8 am I couldn’t take it. I called my husband and told him that I needed him to come home and thankfully he was able to.  He got home and made breakfast for the kids and kept them downstairs.

I made it to the bathroom in time for my body to pass what I couldn’t even look at but also didn’t want to flush. I left it there for a good portion of the day and used another bathroom. It seems so ridiculous now. The pains were terrible for about 4-5 hours. I stayed in bed basically all day. 

By bedtime that night I thought I was feeling a lot better. Spent some time with my husband and the kids and then since I lounged all day I figured I’d try to stay up for a while. I was actually sitting on my couch when I felt something large come out. I ran to the bathroom and my heart stopped because I had thought for sure that everything was out, but now I was staring at something larger than the Pam of my hand. I didn’t know what to do and I was alone and these were feelings I’d never dealt with before. 

And today is my due date and there’s not a baby and that feeling is even worse. I never could have imagined the pain I went through that day and I hope to never feel it again. 

May our sweet angel RIP. <3 

Britny 4 kids; 2 angel babies; ,, ,, United States 20892 posts
Oct 25th

Quoting tinana+3:
October 24, 2020

*g*****c TMI/TRIGGER WARNING*
I want to type this out for myself. I don’t expect or really need replies but I never want to forget. I have to come back and edit because my phone is dumb. Shy

We were so briefly expecting this to be our due date. Instead we suffered our first and hopefully only miscarriage.

The same week the pandemic was declared. The same year that was so horrible for so many. 

We knew on March 13th that there was no cardiac activity. We knew before that because my levels weren’t good.
We knew because when we went in for the ultrasound, I started bleeding. 

March 16th, in the week hours of the morning, I was having bad pelvic pains. I thought maybe if I just laid still the pain would go away and for a short time, it did. I drifted back off to sleep and before I k ew it my husband had already left for work and I was in agony. School was closed due to Covid. I let the kids sleep in and wondered how I would make it through the day with these cramps.

By 8 am I couldn’t take it. I called my husband and told him that I needed him to come home and thankfully he was able to.  He got home and made breakfast for the kids and kept them downstairs.

I made it to the bathroom in time for my body to pass what I couldn’t even look at but also didn’t want to flush. I left it there for a good portion of the day and used another bathroom. It seems so ridiculous now. The pains were terrible for about 4-5 hours. I stayed in bed basically all day. 

By bedtime that night I thought I was feeling a lot better. Spent some time with my husband and the kids and then since I lounged all day I figured I’d try to stay up for a while. I was actually sitting on my couch when I felt something large come out. I ran to the bathroom and my heart stopped because I had thought for sure that everything was out, but now I was staring at something larger than the Pam of my hand. I didn’t know what to do and I was alone and these were feelings I’d never dealt with before. 

And today is my due date and there’s not a baby and that feeling is even worse. I never could have imagined the pain I went through that day and I hope to never feel it again. 

May our sweet angel RIP. <3 


Oh no my friend. If you want to add me on Facebook after my stillbirth I joined a group for support
No one should ever lose a baby I am so sorry. Hugs

my Facebook is under Britny Serna. My profile picture is me holding the candle for his vigil.