I fell for a man online a year ago.

we met 5 years ago, he was going through some health issues.
we instantly hit it off as friends, best friends even.

fast forward to last year,  he was gona for some time...and I missed him so much.
that's when I realized my feelings had evolved into much more than friendship..

anyways now, we have been through many ups n downs (my fault really)

I get jealous and insecure...

how do I stop getting so paranoid and jealous?

I have caught him in a lie or two...nothing really major...