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SomeMommy 5 kids; 1 angel baby; Chicago, IL, United States 74008 posts
Nov 10th '16

Hugs to all of you<333

I don't fully know that pain but I have lost a baby but in different circumstances. I had to make that choice but it's haunted me since and will always be on my mind. A regret that I struggle with terribly, especially when I thought I couldn't have another. 

I pray you ladies get your rainbows if you haven't already.

bloopbloop♥ 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Illinois 14727 posts
Nov 10th '16

Quoting Rock_Candy:

Yeah 23 days until my csection. been havinh issues with my drs tho so its been really stressful. and yes ive been cancer free for about 5 years now :) im pretty blessed to have been given kids and i remind myself that when dd is a pain lol. shes been pretty difficukt recently but im cutting her sime slack. im sure she can feel the big change ciming. 


Wow very soon! I'm happy to hear you are cancer free! 

Hehe yes I as well understand. My little boy has been a huge handful lately and I'm trying not to loose my cool. I'm very greatful for him. He's my biggest blessing. Yes i bet it is tough that is definately one of my fears into brining a 2nd child my sons emotions. I know in the end it will be fine. :) 

SomeMommy 5 kids; 1 angel baby; Chicago, IL, United States 74008 posts
Nov 10th '16

I am so beyond thankful for my kids too. After things happened, I didn't think I would have kids either. When I got pregnant with my oldest, I was diagnosed with precancerous cervical cells. They cleared up, I got pregnant with twins shockingly and after them, my body broke down completely. I have stage 4 endometriosis and cysts all over in there. I mean, 8 years and plenty of that time we were unprotected, I just was beginning to accept that another baby wasn't in our books and I was thinking of how much more thankful for my girls I was because they came before this mess. And now, idk, I still have a hard time believing it.


my friend had been unprotected with her husband for 10 years then BAM, they had a baby. He's about to be one. So, miracles happen. Don't give up.

bloopbloop♥ 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Illinois 14727 posts
Nov 10th '16

Quoting SomeMommy:
Hugs to all of you<333

I don't fully know that pain but I have lost a baby but in different circumstances. I had to make that choice but it's haunted me since and will always be on my mind. A regret that I struggle with terribly, especially when I thought I couldn't have another. 

I pray you ladies get your rainbows if you haven't already.


<3 i believe even under your circumstances it's still pain.. I understand it was your choice but it still in your heart and in your thoughts. <3 I'm sure it wasn't an easy choice but it was the best with what you had at the time. And you've been blessed with your girls and now your new pregnancy. Never feel guilty for that :) thank you for sharing this with us. It has made me feel like we come together as women for each other and it's truly made me happy. 


I pray and have a good feeling ill get my rainbow baby. I'll probably be a wreck of a mess but I am super hopeful. :) 


bloopbloop♥ 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Illinois 14727 posts
Nov 10th '16

Quoting SomeMommy:
I am so beyond thankful for my kids too. After things happened, I didn't think I would have kids either. When I got pregnant with my oldest, I was diagnosed with precancerous cervical cells. They cleared up, I got pregnant with twins shockingly and after them, my body broke down completely. I have stage 4 endometriosis and cysts all over in there. I mean, 8 years and plenty of that time we were unprotected, I just was beginning to accept that another baby wasn't in our books and I was thinking of how much more thankful for my girls I was because they came before this mess. And now, idk, I still have a hard time believing it.


my friend had been unprotected with her husband for 10 years then BAM, they had a baby. He's about to be one. So, miracles happen. Don't give up.


After all those trials and tribulations here you are with your beautiful kids and your pregnancy! Enjoy it! :) 

Miracles do happen. My cousin had been trying for so long they did IVF they lost their babies the first try and she did IVF again and he's a miracle. I could just cry thinking of how happy she is with her baby. Miracles are beautiful and they happen maybe not right when we want them but they happen. 

SomeMommy 5 kids; 1 angel baby; Chicago, IL, United States 74008 posts
Nov 10th '16

Quoting bloopbloop♥:

<3 i believe even under your circumstances it's still pain.. I understand it was your choice but it still in your heart and in your thoughts. <3 I'm sure it wasn't an easy choice but it was the best with what you had at the time. And you've been blessed with your girls and now your new pregnancy. Never feel guilty for that :) thank you for sharing this with us. It has made me feel like we come together as women for each other and it's truly made me happy. 


I pray and have a good feeling ill get my rainbow baby. I'll probably be a wreck of a mess but I am super hopeful. :) 




Thank you. I was ashamed of myself for so long but talking to some women I trusted helped me at least forgive myself in a way and to share my experience bc I know there are other women who are in my shoes. I just will never forget. I count that as my angel baby. 

I have good feelings for you too. Things seem to happen when you least expect it! Cause that's how life rolls lol

bloopbloop♥ 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Illinois 14727 posts
Nov 10th '16

Quoting SomeMommy:

Thank you. I was ashamed of myself for so long but talking to some women I trusted helped me at least forgive myself in a way and to share my experience bc I know there are other women who are in my shoes. I just will never forget. I count that as my angel baby. 

I have good feelings for you too. Things seem to happen when you least expect it! Cause that's how life rolls lol


Sending you hugs! I think sharing your expirence does help you get a sense of compassion and community. That will always be your angel baby. <3 clearly it was tough decision and no one can ever say otherwise! 


Life sure does roll that way and we have to roll with it. LOL! 

We just decided to get married in a month. Well we were going to anyway we got our marriage license a few weeks back but we set a date. I'm excited it probably won't be anything huge just at the court house. 

bloopbloop♥ 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Illinois 14727 posts
Nov 10th '16

I feel more nervous about this visit with my dr and I don't know why. Hopefully it's the last for now. 

SomeMommy 5 kids; 1 angel baby; Chicago, IL, United States 74008 posts
Nov 10th '16

Quoting bloopbloop♥:

Sending you hugs! I think sharing your expirence does help you get a sense of compassion and community. That will always be your angel baby. <3 clearly it was tough decision and no one can ever say otherwise! 


Life sure does roll that way and we have to roll with it. LOL! 

We just decided to get married in a month. Well we were going to anyway we got our marriage license a few weeks back but we set a date. I'm excited it probably won't be anything huge just at the court house. 


Thank you <33

heck yes! We got married after 10 yrs and 3 kids and that's why we now have a honeymoon baby on the way 38 That's great though, congrats!!!

bloopbloop♥ 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Illinois 14727 posts
Nov 10th '16

Quoting SomeMommy:

Thank you <33

heck yes! We got married after 10 yrs and 3 kids and that's why we now have a honeymoon baby on the way 38 That's great though, congrats!!!


Thank you!! It will be 11 years for us this December lol!! Hopefully we get a honeymoon baby, lol i guess we shall see. 

SomeMommy 5 kids; 1 angel baby; Chicago, IL, United States 74008 posts
Nov 10th '16

Quoting bloopbloop♥:

Thank you!! It will be 11 years for us this December lol!! Hopefully we get a honeymoon baby, lol i guess we shall see. 


Wow!! Amazing! I'm going to keep my fingers and toes crossed for you guys! You never know <33

bloopbloop♥ 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Illinois 14727 posts
Nov 10th '16

Quoting SomeMommy:

Wow!! Amazing! I'm going to keep my fingers and toes crossed for you guys! You never know <33


Thank you!! <3 I'm going to cross them too! 

SomeMommy 5 kids; 1 angel baby; Chicago, IL, United States 74008 posts
Nov 10th '16

Quoting bloopbloop♥:

Thank you!! <3 I'm going to cross them too! 


<333

Red~Origami 2 kids; United States 5283 posts
Nov 10th '16

Quoting bloopbloop♥:

Wow very soon! I'm happy to hear you are cancer free! 

Hehe yes I as well understand. My little boy has been a huge handful lately and I'm trying not to loose my cool. I'm very greatful for him. He's my biggest blessing. Yes i bet it is tough that is definately one of my fears into brining a 2nd child my sons emotions. I know in the end it will be fine. :) 


Sry for all my errors. my DD keeps changing my keyboard and its really getting me down lol. half the time i dont notice anymore. im sure she will be a great big sis but im sure it wont be easy for a while. i swear i heard little footsteps running around her room at 4am but then she went back to bed lol. midnight energy i guess hahaha. least shes been pretty good with grandma. 

Red~Origami 2 kids; United States 5283 posts
Nov 10th '16

Quoting SomeMommy:
Hugs to all of you<333

I don't fully know that pain but I have lost a baby but in different circumstances. I had to make that choice but it's haunted me since and will always be on my mind. A regret that I struggle with terribly, especially when I thought I couldn't have another. 

I pray you ladies get your rainbows if you haven't already.


Hug. some choices we make really hurt us. i felt the same after i gave up my first son for adoption. took me 7 years to actually come to terms with it. a loss is a loss even if its our choice. your baby knows you love them <3