Two years... Dee♡ Due August 22; 2 kids; 1 angel baby; .., IN, United States 6122 posts
Aug 5th '16

It's been two years since we were told we'd have to lose you. Two years since that ultrasound that showed an empty womb and a tiny flicker in the wrong place. Two years......

Lord knows who you would have been. You'd be around 18 months old now. Maybe you were our little princess we will never have. Maybe you were another prince for our family of little men. We won't ever know....

But, if we were to have had you, we wouldn't have our little E now. It's conflicting to think about and try to process that.

I thought this would get easier with time. I was wrong. It hurts just as bad today as it did two years ago. We had longed for you so much and in an instant you were taken away.

My fb feed has been filled with pro-lifers today. Oh, I want to scream at them. I had no choice. I had to let my baby go. Do they know how much that hurts? That's a different issue within itself, though.

I hope one day I can conquer this day without tears, without taking it out on others, without laying around sulking all day....

Until then, I'm going to lay here, be in a bad mood, and cry over this pizza.

I love you, little bean.

Mommalicious Trina Due August 15 (girl); 3 kids; United States 250 posts
Aug 5th '16

So sorry for your loss Very Sad

Love Wedge +2 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Waterloo, Ontario 44855 posts
Aug 5th '16

So sorry :(

Next month will be 8 years since my miscarriage. Hard to believe really. The hole doesn't go away, but it gets easier to manage and work around.

If you ever want to talk, just shoot me a PM.

⭐No Apologies Due April 10; Miami, FL, United States 4078 posts
Aug 5th '16

I'm sorry for your loss hun <3

Bunni♥+4 4 kids; 5 angel babies; ., IL, United States 4196 posts
Aug 5th '16

I'm so sorry for your loss!

Have Heart 2 kids; 2 angel babies; Western, NY, United States 9013 posts
Aug 5th '16

I often wonder what it would be like if I didn't lose my first child. But I wouldn't have my rainbow baby either if that were the case, and pregnancy with him was a nightmare. my he or she would be turning 3 this September.

big hugs momma <3

Dee♡ Due August 22; 2 kids; 1 angel baby; .., IN, United States 6122 posts
Aug 5th '16

Thank you all. And hugs to those that have experienced a loss as well. <3