It's been two years since we were told we'd have to lose you. Two years since that ultrasound that showed an empty womb and a tiny flicker in the wrong place. Two years......
Lord knows who you would have been. You'd be around 18 months old now. Maybe you were our little princess we will never have. Maybe you were another prince for our family of little men. We won't ever know....
But, if we were to have had you, we wouldn't have our little E now. It's conflicting to think about and try to process that.
I thought this would get easier with time. I was wrong. It hurts just as bad today as it did two years ago. We had longed for you so much and in an instant you were taken away.
My fb feed has been filled with pro-lifers today. Oh, I want to scream at them. I had no choice. I had to let my baby go. Do they know how much that hurts? That's a different issue within itself, though.
I hope one day I can conquer this day without tears, without taking it out on others, without laying around sulking all day....
Until then, I'm going to lay here, be in a bad mood, and cry over this pizza.
I love you, little bean.
So sorry for your loss
So sorry :(
Next month will be 8 years since my miscarriage. Hard to believe really. The hole doesn't go away, but it gets easier to manage and work around.
If you ever want to talk, just shoot me a PM.
I'm sorry for your loss hun <3
I'm so sorry for your loss!
I often wonder what it would be like if I didn't lose my first child. But I wouldn't have my rainbow baby either if that were the case, and pregnancy with him was a nightmare. my he or she would be turning 3 this September.
big hugs momma <3