My lil angel gone too soon anxioustobe United States 4 posts
Jul 14th '16
  • How do one get over a loss especially one so far along. I was 21 weeks along the farthest I've ever been i thought this baby, baby number 4 was going to stick! Last thursday I started to have alot of leakage enough to soak up my panties so i went to the nearest emergency but that hospital was only concerned about why i was at their hospital and y i didn't travel for over an hour to go to my own obgyn. So they did a half ass check to see if i was leaking amniotic fluid and they said i wasn't and didnt try to find out what it was either and just tried to get me out. Two days later i was rushed to the hospital i was having contractions and was completely dialated my doctor had confirmed that I in fact was leaking amniotic fluid the entire time. They strapped the contraction and heartbeat monitor on me and told me i had to just endure the pain. For 15 hours I took the pain and dealt with the contractions until my body wouldn't listen to me any more i had the urge to push and that's what my body did I went from hearing my babygirls heartbeat to five mins later the doc telling me she didn't make it  I believe that if i would've went to a hospital that gave a Damn the first time my baby would still be here 
tinana+3 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Orlando, FL, Virgin Islands 48329 posts
Jul 14th '16

I'm very sorry for your loss.

Unfortunately if your water breaks that early, it's rare for the baby to make it. Don't beat yourself up, as hard as it is not to. 

user banned Due January 2; 3 kids; Illinois 1045 posts
Jul 15th '16

Hugs and love <3 

Jenn+5 ❤️ TTC since May 2017; 5 kids; 2 angel babies; Town you've never heard of, OH, United States 13470 posts
Jul 15th '16

Hugs mama! So sorry for your loss. Life is so unfair. No mom should have to go through the loss of their child. Ever. 

Ladiitt621 1 child; 1 angel baby; The Hamptons, NY, United States 1027 posts
Aug 5th '16

I just went through the same thing. i was 20 weeks and my water broke. I naturally went into labor and delivered my angel baby girl the next morning. 
i am so unbelievably heart broken. i just heard her heartbeat the day before at my doc appt. i was going for my anatomy scan that day to find out if she was a boy/girl. 
There is no reason - no explanation - just that it happened and she couldn't survive that early. i held her in my arms, got to touch her and kiss her, but she is just not here. i am okay most days, but once i think about her (like now) i just get all choked up and cry. i would just give anything to go back and maybe do something different, idk...ANYTHING to be able to bring her back and feel her back in my belly. 
i have never in my life experienced this type of pain.