I might be being overdramatic but I just feel so anxious at times. My morning sickness has passed and I have more energy. I'm feeling great. I feel thumps every now and then but not very often which I know is totally normal at 18 weeks. We've heard the heartbeat perfectly and clearly at every appointment and I can pick her up easily on my home Doppler. Everything points to I'm growing a healthy little girl and I should be on cloud 9. But I'm not. I'm anxious that something will go wrong or I'll go into my next ultrasound, June 9th and they'll tell me some thing is not right. This is my rainbow baby, and I'm finding it hard to fully attach because of this anxiety. It sounds stupid when I write it out because all the signs point to its fine.
I felt like that with DD. I had 3 losses before her and I had convinced myself that there was no way I would ever make it to term. Eventually the more active she got throughout the pregnancy, the easier it was to attach myself and convince myself that this was it. As soon as I hit 30 weeks I felt much more secure. The feeling definitely faded as time progressed!
I'm 30 weeks and still feel anxious. I had two losses back to back before conceiving her and the fear of losing her is just as strong as it was when I first found out I was pregnant. I still cry at night thinking something is going to go wrong. I've had plenty of tests that should be giving me reassurance that she is healthy but I'm still terrified.
I felt like that with both babies. I had 2 early losses before my first baby then got pregnant with my second baby only 4 months after my first was born. Both my babies were fine though but i really didn't stop worrying til they were born and in my arms
I'm glad I'm not the only one. Thanks mamas.