Just when you think you're in the safe zone...*Vent* MissMandii TTC since Jun 2016; 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Salem, IN, United States 1296 posts
Dec 11th '14

Something else makes you break down bawling and blubbering in a parking lot. I remember when I was pregnant with my son... every new thing would make me think, "Wow... this is really real. I am really pregnant. I am really going to be a mother." First the pregnancy test. Then the blood test. Then the heartbeat, the u/s, the kicks, the name, the shower... it went ever on until I held him in my arms. It's the same with this loss. First the spotting. Then the ultrasound. Then the comforting hand on my shoulder. The Rhogam shot. The flood of red. The final ultrasound. Today... the drastically dropping HCG levels. I don't know why a number hits so hard... but it did. A week ago today, my HCG was 32,000. Today 1000. All I can think is how when that number finally drops to 0, thats it. My baby is gone. Gone. Really gone. For a moment I can't breathe. I just sob. I've held onto the only ultrasound image we have with a picture of our baby. I held on to the pregnancy test. Now I hold on to that paper they gave me with my hug numbers. This is all I have of him or her. 

Realization is a b***h. 
That is all. 

Mommy to Chad&Isaiah Due February 6; 3 kids; USA 507 posts
Dec 11th '14

*hugs* I am so sorry for your loss. 

NatashasMommy 1 child; United States 260 posts
Dec 11th '14

im so sorry

Needingabreak 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Somewhere, Bg, United States 12127 posts
Dec 11th '14

<3 hugs

.Housewife Due December 17; 1 child; 2 angel babies; Roma, La, United States 49163 posts
Dec 11th '14

I'm sorry for your loss doll. I know exactly how you feel. I had a M/C about 3-4 weeks ago :(.

now that it's coming to that day again about a month ago. In feeling so down. 

Katelyn TTC♥ TTC since Jan 2013; 1 child; Nauvoo, Alabama 1482 posts
Dec 11th '14

I am so sorry hun big hugs.. I can not imagine. 

B★B's Mama TTC since Jul 2013; 2 kids; 2 angel babies; Waco, Tx, United States 13148 posts
Dec 11th '14

So sorry for your loss:(. I myself also had a miscarriage 2-3 weeks ago. It was the most heart wrenching ordeal I had to go through. 

  I never even seen a baby or a sac. Never got to hear a heartbeat. ;(

user banned 7 angel babies; not saying, wi, United States 7152 posts
Dec 11th '14

Aww I'm sorry for your loss :(

Sweet Little Lies 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Deception, WI, United States 6900 posts
Dec 11th '14

I am so sorry for your loss. It's been a week since I miscarried. I'm here if you want to talk or just vent. Thinking of you <3

SeaBea85 1 angel baby; United States 23 posts
Dec 12th '14

I'm so srry for your loss *Hugs*