Last year it came and went and I didn't even notice. This year, its like its coming too fast and I can't escape it.
My baby would be six years old this year.
Getting ready to start the first grade.
Mason and Piper's older brother/sister.
Instead, I lost my first baby when I was eight weeks pregnant.
And I know its been more than six years, and I should be "over it", but sometimes it still hits me, and it feels like I'm being torn apart all over again. I have two happy, healthy, gorgeous children, which I am so thankful for, but I still can't help but be pissed at the world sometimes that I never got to hold my first child, and watch them take their first breath, and smell their incredible smell and kiss their tiny little face.
I'm very sorry for your loss. Whether it is 6 months, 6 years, or 16 years....It's okay to still be upset over the loss. It's totally normal and no one here is going to tell you you're wrong.
I hope you are able to find peace throughout all of it, though.