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Now what? Kellie.V 16 kids; Cary, North Carolina 377 posts
Apr 1st '11

Her funeral was today.



Now what?



I feel so lost, confused, detached from life. I feel like a zombie.

user banned 4 kids; Mueang Phuket, Thailand 30487 posts
Apr 1st '11

im sorry for you lost momma...

i have never been in your shoes, but you will just have to take it day by day...

Kellie.V 16 kids; Cary, North Carolina 377 posts
Apr 1st '11
Quoting ☮ Phuket:" im sorry for you lost momma... i have never been in your shoes, but you will just have to take it day by day..."


I know :(
I'm getting a tattoo tomorrow. Maybe feel some physical pain instead of emotional pain for awhile ... silly way to look at it but it's how I feel.

user banned 4 kids; Mueang Phuket, Thailand 30487 posts
Apr 1st '11

i just read your story.. your so strong. again im really sorry, my heart aches for you

user banned 4 kids; Mueang Phuket, Thailand 30487 posts
Apr 1st '11
Quoting Kellie.V:" I know :( I'm getting a tattoo tomorrow. Maybe feel some physical pain instead of emotional pain for awhile ... silly way to look at it but it's how I feel."


im sure it will help you. I had a friend who gave birth to a baby with anecepholy if you have a FB i can link you to her.. she is very wise and very strong and i bet she would have some words of wisdom for you.

Kellie.V 16 kids; Cary, North Carolina 377 posts
Apr 1st '11
Quoting ☮ Phuket:" im sure it will help you. I had a friend who gave birth to a baby with anecepholy if you have a FB i ... [snip!] ... you have a FB i can link you to her.. she is very wise and very strong and i bet she would have some words of wisdom for you."


I do have FB but I deactivated my account on March 21st. Just need to not be on while I'm going through this. I didn't want people saying "sorry" all over my wall or asking how I was when they didn't understand.

☠ Meg13 ☠ 2 kids; Kansas City, Missouri 13167 posts
Apr 1st '11
Quoting Kellie.V:" I know :( I'm getting a tattoo tomorrow. Maybe feel some physical pain instead of emotional pain for awhile ... silly way to look at it but it's how I feel."


That's not silly at all!
Physical pain helps a lot, especially when it's a tattoo. It helps with closure.




I read your story, and I'm very sorry.

Kellie.V 16 kids; Cary, North Carolina 377 posts
Apr 1st '11
Quoting ☠ Meg13 ☠:" That's not silly at all! Physical pain helps a lot, especially when it's a tattoo. It helps with closure. I read your story, and I'm very sorry."


Thanks.



& in that case I hope this hurts A LOT.

☠ Meg13 ☠ 2 kids; Kansas City, Missouri 13167 posts
Apr 1st '11
Quoting Kellie.V:" Thanks. & in that case I hope this hurts A LOT."


What are you getting, and where?

Kellie.V 16 kids; Cary, North Carolina 377 posts
Apr 1st '11
Quoting ☠ Meg13 ☠:" What are you getting, and where?"


I'm getting the cherry blossom branches. I'm gonna have it start like right behind my shoulder and then go down I was thinking like around my bra strap area.

ChaCha ♥s Her Boys 67 kids; Arizona 1061 posts
Apr 1st '11
Quoting ☠ Meg13 ☠:" That's not silly at all! Physical pain helps a lot, especially when it's a tattoo. It helps with closure. I read your story, and I'm very sorry."


Exactly. Not only do you get to express your emotional pain through a physical act, but you'll have a beautiful piece of art at the end of it that (no matter what you get) will be with you forever. One day, years from now, you'll look at that tattoo and it will become a badge of honor of sorts. You survived. You may not feel like that's a good thing right this minute, but once the haze of pain has cleared a bit, you'll see that living on, enjoying every moment of your life, is the very best way to honor your daughter and your loss.



My thoughts are with you mama. You can do this, I know you can. <3

☠ Meg13 ☠ 2 kids; Kansas City, Missouri 13167 posts
Apr 1st '11
Quoting Kellie.V:" I'm getting the cherry blossom branches. I'm gonna have it start like right behind my shoulder and then go down I was thinking like around my bra strap area."


Ooooh, pretty. Post pictures when you can. :D

Kellie.V 16 kids; Cary, North Carolina 377 posts
Apr 1st '11
Quoting TooFabulousForWords:" Exactly. Not only do you get to express your emotional pain through a physical act, but you'll have ... [snip!] ... the very best way to honor your daughter and your loss. My thoughts are with you mama. You can do this, I know you can. <3"


Thank you. That was nice. I hope all of that is true. I hate feeling this way. :(

Kellie.V 16 kids; Cary, North Carolina 377 posts
Apr 1st '11
Quoting ☠ Meg13 ☠:" Ooooh, pretty. Post pictures when you can. :D"


Oh I will definitely!! :)

user banned 4 kids; Mueang Phuket, Thailand 30487 posts
Apr 2nd '11

hope your tattoo session goes well!