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having a hard time :( ♥ M.K.T ♥ 18 kids; Grants Pass, Oregon 1285 posts
Dec 31st '10

So this is new years eve..tomorrow is new years day and my daughters would be 2nd birthday. I don't seem to have the will to go out and celebrate when all I can think of is how much i miss her and wish that she was still here. I thought that I had worked thru this pain and sadness but all I want to do tonight is curl up and cry for the daughter I will never get to hold again. Tomorrow I will go get fresh flowers and a huge balloon..I will write out my thoughts to her on the balloon and let it go into the sky, for her to read and enjoy on her birthday..I will let the flowers go in the river to send out my love for her...This is what I do on her birthday and the day that she left this world..its never enough..its never going to be enough for me to be able to show her how much I love her and how much my heart aches for her..I miss her so much..I am home alone and all I want is a nice warm hug...some support.



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mamatoie&d Due February 20 (twins); 1 child; 2 angel babies; High Point, NC, United States 6528 posts
Dec 31st '10

I'm so sorry for your loss mama. :cry:
I can't even begin to imagine your pain.
*lots of hugs*

*~*Riley & Parkers Mama*~ Due January 18 (girl); 2 kids; Spring, Texas 10806 posts
Dec 31st '10

I'm so sorry for your loss mama. **hugs**

It's Ashleyyyy! 2 kids; 2 angel babies; Savannah, Georgia 14297 posts
Dec 31st '10

Gorgeous, simply gorgeous. I'm so so sorry for your loss.

amber dawn* 2 kids; Spring Hill, FL, United States 2738 posts
Dec 31st '10

aww, i am so sorry!! :( she is beautiful and will love the balloon and flowers from her mommy <3

Winning Warlock 2 kids; United Kingdom 6782 posts
Dec 31st '10

I am so sorry for your loss :( She is beautiful...My heart goes out to you *hugs*

♥ M.K.T ♥ 18 kids; Grants Pass, Oregon 1285 posts
Dec 31st '10

thanks mamas..I appreciate the hugs :) I don't know what to do with myself right now.. my son is at his dads and my SO is at work til bout 9 tonight..The house is clean cuz i already attacked it and scrubbed it down out of need to busy myself..I tried a bath to calm myself but that didn't work..:(

EskimoKiss TTC since Apr 2014; 1 child; Texas 11221 posts
Dec 31st '10

:( *hugs* im so sorry. i cant imagine

Meg+Alexis+Evan 2 kids; Kentucky 2405 posts
Dec 31st '10

:( I'm so sorry, mama! She was beautiful!

Paramedic Mommy 2 kids; Alamo, North Dakota 114 posts
Dec 31st '10

can begin to think what you are going threw, it would be hard and you are amazing strong. She is beautiful and nows how much her mommy loves her. keep strong

mamatoie&d Due February 20 (twins); 1 child; 2 angel babies; High Point, NC, United States 6528 posts
Dec 31st '10

You are so strong mama. Take some time to cry, if that's what you need to do. Hell, that's ALL I would ever do. The flowers/balloons are a great way to remember her.

♥ M.K.T ♥ 18 kids; Grants Pass, Oregon 1285 posts
Dec 31st '10

I definitely don't feel strong right now. Thanks ladies....I think that once its actually tomorrow I might feel a little better just because I will have to face it..right now Im just anticipating it and Im an emotional wreck..plus im 29 wks preggo and my emotions seem to be more shaky these days as it is.

It's Ashleyyyy! 2 kids; 2 angel babies; Savannah, Georgia 14297 posts
Dec 31st '10
Quoting ☮ 29.1 Weeks ☮:
amber dawn* 2 kids; Spring Hill, FL, United States 2738 posts
Dec 31st '10

a friend of mine lost her daughter during the summer to a drowning accident. Every once in a while we send up pink and purple balloons (her fav colors) with messages, they put a xmas tree by her grave & let people put ornaments on it, and build a snowman on her birthday!! its a great way to remember her :)


try and make the best of her birthday, my thoughts will be with you & your family <3<3

Elizabeth 0315 Due February 24; 35 kids; Prince Edward Island 1630 posts
Jan 1st '11

I'm so sorry for your loss :( I think you are doing a beautiful job of honoring her memory. She can feel every bit of love you have for her momma , I honestly believe this