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It just needs to be said. DescendedDelight TTC since Nov 2012; 1 child; Addison, Texas 18697 posts
Nov 25th '10

I need to just, vent. Let it out that I am so not f**king okay.
I am suffering in so many ways that my mind just isn't able to wrap itself around any kind of positive thought.
After a few weeks of peace in my relationship which I thought was recovering from abuse, I was abused again.
From 5 am to 9 am this morning, I was punched repeatedly, slapped, choked, thrown against walls, thrown between a bed and a sofa, where my head smashed against the metal bars. Picked up, shaken, bit, scratched and pinched.
All because I couldn't find the bottle in time.
He snapped. And I could have died.
And where is my stupid ass only 10 hours after the fact? In this same apartment, as he goes to work and pretends that everything was fixed by his "I'm sorry it will not happen again."
I could have died today.
And I would have been okay with that.
I just can't do this anymore.
I don't want to breathe, I don't want to eat, I don't want to do anything. I don't want to exist.
I'm tired. My soul is tired.
I am alone.
So .f**king. alone.

Jessica 3 kids; North Pole, AK, United States 26015 posts
Nov 25th '10

You need some help, hun.
Your child needs you and you need to stay positive and get the hell out of there.
Is there anyone that can take you in for awhile?

☮live Due January 23; 2 kids; Nampa, Idaho 14721 posts
Nov 25th '10

you need to find some help now momma. get out of there, go stay with friends or family for a bit. you could have died and you would have been ok with that?! what kind of life would that leave your child?

♥ Monkey & Sour Pat 17 kids; Fremont, California 4355 posts
Nov 25th '10

I'm really sorry that happened.



You need to get out of their ASAP. call the cops on his ass. Your child and you do not need to be in an environment like that! "I'm sorry...won't happen again." Bullshit.

DescendedDelight TTC since Nov 2012; 1 child; Addison, Texas 18697 posts
Nov 25th '10
Quoting __Jessica__:
......................... Santa Fe, New Mexico 46828 posts
Nov 25th '10

Please please please talk to someone and get out. Please. You don't deserve to be treated like this. I am so sorry. You and your LO deserve way better than this.



http://www.thehotline.org/

Tickled Pink or Blue! 1 child; North Carolina 4669 posts
Nov 25th '10

Your child needs you--and your child deserves his/her mother.

Please get out of there and get some help. What he's doing to you is NOT ok. It will NEVER be okay--and you deserve SOOOO Much better. (((HUGS))) and prayers for you.

Catalina ♥ 1 child; Washington 483 posts
Nov 25th '10

If you can't find the strength to get help for yourself, do it for your baby. What will keep him from almost killing the baby someday? :(

......................... Santa Fe, New Mexico 46828 posts
Nov 25th '10
Quoting DescendedDelight:
Jessica 3 kids; North Pole, AK, United States 26015 posts
Nov 25th '10
Quoting DescendedDelight:
☮live Due January 23; 2 kids; Nampa, Idaho 14721 posts
Nov 25th '10
Quoting DescendedDelight:
mamatoie&d Due February 20 (twins); 1 child; 2 angel babies; High Point, NC, United States 6528 posts
Nov 25th '10

Please get help NOW mama.
For your sake and for your daughter's sake.
No matter what he promises, he will most likely snap again. Next time you may not be so lucky.



1.800.799.SAFE
1.800.799.7233

Layla's Momma ♥ 17 kids; California 4457 posts
Nov 25th '10

Get out of there before he starts hitting your daughter too!

*sp* Due April 25 (girl); 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Texas 16767 posts
Nov 25th '10

You need to get out ASAP!! I know it's easier said than done, but what are you going to do when he snaps at the baby one day? Guys like that don't change, ever. Please leave..I know there are shelters all over Tx if you have no other place to go.

MrsMason 18 kids; Raleigh, North Carolina 6753 posts
Nov 25th '10

I know its easier said than done... I've been there, but you've gotta get out of there. Protect your baby. Call the cops. I know you have marks. Call them now. NOW.



You are not alone my dear.