Quoting Jordan & Liliana's Mommy:" not sure if people would call this a traumatic birth but everything that happen to me before durring ... [snip!] ... in the hospital my heart races and I feel faint. The birth and everything that went with it makes me feel faint or just crying."
I know this was posted a while ago but I hope you are starting to heal some. That about made me cry. :[
Thats so awful. I am so so so sorry. My birth was bad due to Pre-eclampsia but yours is BY FAR much scarier. Have you till not been able to get your milk to come in? Doctors have a pill now that they can give you to induce lactation! and it works for adopted parents and transgenders...lol both that have never had children so it should work if you can get it.
I just wanted to share this.
I had a pretty traumatic labor experience. I know that I posted it in one of these threads (not sure if it's this one)...but during my labor, I meditated to my favorite band, Enigma in hopes that I would not get an epidural...but the hospital staff was so pushy that I ended up with it anyway due to "Pre-Eclampsia" and scare tactics... anyway, my son didn't react to it well. His heart rate dropped and he almost died ect... It still makes me mildly ill to think about.
There is more to the story but I just wanted to share... that it has been 15 months now and I can FINALLY listen to, Enigma without having this sick gut wrenching feeling...or without crying...
For months after the birth of my son, I couldn't look at him without crying and if it weren't for breastfeeding I don't think we would have bonded...
The other day, when I was able to listen to that music and not feel regret... it was the first time I had really noticed that I am healing....
Healing can take a long time... but I hope you all can find peace <3
Quoting Jeanine *:" I know this was posted a while ago but I hope you are starting to heal some. That about made me cry. ... [snip!] ... and it works for adopted parents and transgenders...lol both that have never had children so it should work if you can get it."
Thank you so much mama. I did not know about the pill and i am still having major milk issues.
It does not matter who story was worse then others it was bad or tramatic to the mother/baby/or family.
Quoting Jordan & Liliana's Mommy:" Thank you so much mama. I did not know about the pill and i am still having major milk issues. ... [snip!] ... major milk issues. It does not matter who story was worse then others it was bad or tramatic to the mother/baby/or family."
Very true. <3
It has taken me 15 months to start really healing and it may be a while but know that no matter what, it WILL get better mama. :[
I would ask about that pill. Also, even if you don't get anything, keep pumping. My friend was a surrogate mother and the woman she was having the baby for induced lactation after 6months of pumping everyday religiously every 2 hours... she had never been pregnant in her life... but by the time the baby was born she made herself have milk! Its crazy what the body can do.
I know it's something you want and chances are it can happen but remember, if you absolutely can't have it happen. Don't beat yourself up. You have done what you can do and that is the best any mother can do for her child. At least you have the passion and the will to bond with your child. That means a LOT. Many woman have children and couldn't care less. Your child is VERY lucky to have a mama like you.
I found this on the drug so you have a name to ask for if you decide to go in: Its called Domperidone
Can anyone please, please link me to or provide me with information on suing my hospital for birth rape? Like who to consult, ways to go about it, anything.
Thank you so much.