I am Ashley, and I am an adult child of an alcoholic. (My dad.)
He was passed out for my first Christmas. At that point, my mom told him he could either stop drinking, or never see either one of us again. So he stopped. But he was a dry drunk all of my life. Always handling things in the way alcoholics do. Because of that, my childhood was pretty screwy. My dad handling things the way he did and my mom trying to pretend that things were good. When I was 17, my dad started drinking again, with my addict (in many ways) ex-fiance. It pretty much destroyed my little sisters' lives and made us all feel as though he did not care about us anymore. He refuses to admit he has a problem, despite the fact that he lies about his drinking, and obviously does have a problem.
My father is not the only addict I have loved, there have been many. I noticed addictive tendencies in myself as well. I have managed to control them for the most part, but it has not been easy for me. It's a struggle.
I'm Celeste, I'm 19. My moms a recovered drug addict. She did lines of coke while I was in her for up to 7 months. My memory is blown, my lungs suck, and I have a bad heart.. I was also born with an indent, and asthma.
My dad's always been addicted to weed, but he is the best daddy I could ever ask for an raised me and my brother better then my mom ever could.
They separated when I was 4 and I was not allowed to see my mom, for good reasons, till I turned 18. I talked to her all the time, but she abused drugs too much.
I love the GREEN<3
But have been sober for 5 months. Weed is the only "drug" I have ever tried or been on.
My name is Crystal. I am an addict. I have overcome addiction to Cocaine, Crack, Methamphetamine, and Alcohol. I still struggle with Xanax.
Meth is the hardest to stay off of. I would quit when i found out I was pregnant. But start again when I felt overwhelmed by my responsibilities as a new mother.etc.
I still use Xanax. But I only take one milligram a day. I have never had Rx for it. But have used it for YEARS. If I dont have it I go through withdrawal.
I really just want to go to my doc and be honest and have him gladly write me an Rx for it. But I'm sure it will be percieved as drug seeking behaviour.
I am a rageaholic. I yell. A LOT.
I have major deppressive disorder. And take pristiq for it daily.
My SO is an addict as well. He has his own struggles still. (which complicate mine)
My mom's addiction...
I knew my mom and ex stepdad Jeff did coke on weekends. At the age of 5 I knew what coke was, my dad would do it in front of me.
In July 2008.. Jeff left my mom for a 20 year old Kayla (who I knew when I was little). My mom and Jeff were engaged and together for 14 years. Jeff molested me. I was scared to tell my mom about it. After she left him, I told her. She didn't know what to think.
Jeff moved out, a week later him and Kayla asked if they could move in to save up to rent a house. My mom agreed. My mom was going through so much pain, Jeff and Kayla would cause fights with my mom. My mom meet some guy named Ty, he lived down the street.
My mom would call me everyday. She stopped calling. Her birthday was sept. 9th. I called to wish her a happy birthday. She hung up on me because she was partying. She cut me out of her life. Ty brain washed her into not talking to me. During this time my mom was taking every pill, shooting up coke, doing heroin,.. I kept calling my mom crying, I told her to get help. She would call me names and hang out. I got fed up so I started telling her I'm going to call the police. She still did the drugs. By the end of October 08 my mom was not talking to me.
In Nov, Ty said he was going to divorce his wife so he had to go to FL to do so. He never came back. He stole my mom's credit card numbers, bank account numbers everthing. He called my mom while in FL and asked for money, my mom sent him money. A week later she realized Ty was using her and never coming back to IL. So she started talking to me again..
My mom is still using coke a few times a week. I cry about it. She was my best friend, she changed so much. She was 230 pounds before she got into her drug use now she's 165. I'm trying to rebuild my relationship with her but its hard. I'm trying to forgive her.
I will post my story in a bit....It's pretty long and it's dinner time here, LOL!!
Quoting Epic Synth Jo:
Quoting Suzie S. I Love Sushi!!:
Quoting Monica♥Team Pink:
I think it has a lot to do with feeling abandoned as a child by my biological mother. I kept seeking to "fill the void" ya know?