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M O M M Y Y Due November 10; 1 child; Los Angeles, California 86 posts
Mar 21st '13

I have the lowest self esteem ever& I hate it

Rain (aka Mama) 3 kids; Monroe, Georgia 6503 posts
Mar 21st '13
Quoting M O M M Y Y:" I have the lowest self esteem ever& I hate it"


**hugs**

Jasmine Lyn 1 child; California 78 posts
Apr 1st '13

Fake it till you make.Your the shit and you deserve the best!

Mrs. Lockhart 1 child; Lubbock, Texas 443 posts
Apr 5th '13

Please don't judge me badly I love my son more than anything in this world... I have depression and fr some reason the last three weeks or so ive been having these horrible racing thoughts about my son where I call and think of him as being stupid and I say it over and over to myself in my head... never had this issue and he is 9 months old so idk why the hell it has started... feel like demons are after me I really do... anyone know what this is about? :(((

Rain (aka Mama) 3 kids; Monroe, Georgia 6503 posts
Apr 5th '13
Quoting Mrs. Lockhart:" Please don't judge me badly I love my son more than anything in this world... I have depression and fr ... [snip!] ... old so idk why the hell it has started... feel like demons are after me I really do... anyone know what this is about? :((("


Have you had any issues with postpartum depression? It sounds like it might be a good idea to see a therapist and talk through it.



No one in here would judge you. The fact that you're trying to figure out how to change it shows that you're not a bad mom.

Mrs. Lockhart 1 child; Lubbock, Texas 443 posts
Apr 6th '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Rain (aka Mama):</b>" Have you had any issues with postpartum depression? It sounds like it might be a good idea to see a ... [snip!] ... No one in here would judge you. The fact that you're trying to figure out how to change it shows that you're not a bad mom."</blockquote>



Well like I said I know I have depression, been diagnosed for a while... Is there a difference between regular depression and ppd? And why are these thoughts barely starting is what I don't get, its so frustrating!! :(

Rain (aka Mama) 3 kids; Monroe, Georgia 6503 posts
Apr 6th '13
Quoting Mrs. Lockhart:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Rain (aka Mama):</b>" Have you had any issues with postpartum ... [snip!] ... between regular depression and ppd? And why are these thoughts barely starting is what I don't get, its so frustrating!! :("


I don't believe there are many differences besides that with PPD you've just had a baby, and that it can be worse if you have depression already. You should see about talking with someone before you feel any worse. <3

anonymom + 1.5 2 kids; West Virginia 10787 posts
Apr 8th '13

does anyone in here have or have edxperience with postpartum OCD?



I have been feeling most of the symptoms since my 3rd trimester with my son. Last night I finally found a few articles about it, Googled the shit out of it and.... I'm pretty sure that's it. I'm like 99% sure. I just want it. to. stop. NOW. I'm calling a local mental health clinic in the AM. I sent my mom a message about it and one other friend so I could maybe sort of be held accountable. I literally fell to my knees in thanks that I had some verification I'm not a f**king nutjob, I'm not schizo, I'm not dangerous to my kids. I can honestly say I've never cried in relief, and I did for the first time.... anyway, if anyone can relate to me please, please message me.



Also, has anyone taken lexapro while BFing? Or something like it? That looks like the general starting point (with BCT) for PPOCD

☠Undead Mommy☠ 1 child; Westerville, Ohio 24562 posts
Apr 11th '13

My new appointment is in eleven days. I'm anxious and scared for it to come, I know I need help. I'm at the happiest/sadest point of my life. I have a good boyfriend,but I'm still a little broken about BD and family issues. Hopefully,I can start to treat my bipolar once again and it be a lot more managable then it is now.. No freakout crying for hours,getting so angry etc. :/ I feel like I'm going crazy,but I can't stop it..

That Elise Girl Due September 7; 3 kids; 3 angel babies; Orange County, CA, United States 3005 posts
Apr 22nd '13

I'll update:
It's been about almost 2 months since I've been active on here... I have since then taken myself of all medicine I was prescribed. (Lamictal 150mg, Xanax 0.5, and Lexapro 10mg).... took me some time to decide this. I feel like having someone tell me,"I'm def BIPOLAR" after being fine for 26 years of my life, is just a easy way to make some money. And telling me,"Your going to have to take medicine the rest of your life." OHHH NOOO MA'AM! I will NOT take medicine the rest of my life. I (long story short) have got my butt back into church, after years of just popping in and out. I have prayed and asked to not need all the medicines I'm on.



I think everything I have experienced and some other people I know have gone through is mental issues, yes.... but the DEVIL himself can make you think you have this and you feel this kinda way. He absoulutly took over my mind and my heart into thinking way off track! I don't want to seem like I'm preaching or anything, but God def has worked his wonders with me. I am fine! I didn't have any side effects coming completely off in ONE DAY! I must say I feel great!



If any of you ladies want to talk I am here. I was diagnosed with Bipolar, SAD,PTSD,Depression,Anxiety,and OCD. All things I would "HAVE to deal with the rest of my life"...I'm here to show you, it can just be ALL in your HEAD.



Smile and good luck to you all!

☠BryBry'sMuM☠ Due March 19 (girl); 1 child; Fullerton, California 15229 posts
Apr 26th '13

hey ladies i have self-esteem problems & i feel like i have no friends. i have a few that i know will always be there my sisters, my best friend Ashley & Melissa (friend & co worker) i think part of the problem lies in my relationship with my SO. being with him for 5yrs now after havin my son i realized he was mentally abusive i adressed it to him(of course hes denying it) i am just so unhappy with myself! i feel i lost myself and myabilty to see when someone is bullsitting me. i had a talk with SO about how he treats me and that im not happy wtih us. he needs to treat me like a queen & needs to work on himself.
im depressed and need to better myself. im having trouble finding a hobbie & motiving myself to wrok out. i dont want to take meds for depression. i do find myself thinking & my mind wondering off thinking of so many different things while at work (happens when im not super busy)

MinnesotaMommy2One 1 child; Minnesota 2701 posts
May 23rd '13

Ugh idk what's wrong with me. I've gone to therapists infrequently over the years but never accomplished much because it was just a couple times here and there. This past week has been really, really bad for me so I'm concentrating on getting really healthy for my daughter's sake especially since I have the summer off from school.
I typically am a fairly "normal person", live a good life, etc (albeit I am very much negative in general). But I get in these moods where I am so down and anytime anyone says anything negative to me, I totally blow it out of proportion and feel like the whole world is against me and want to just curl up in a ball and cry for hours. Or get unnceccassarily angry over the smallest things and cry and cry. Just way overreacting and can't let things go. My relationship with those closest to me switches from love to hate in an instant and then back to love again within a short period of time. Funnily enough though it's only with those absolute closest for the most part. I thought for a while I might be bipolar but I don't think so because I don't fit the mania at all and my down times are typically really short. I just am looking forward to getting some help. thanks for letting me share.

Mandible TTC since Nov 2010; 1 child; Lincoln, New Brunswick 4051 posts
May 27th '13

I have severe social/generalized anxiety. I'm unmediated. I guess that's an odd way to make an introduction. But it relates to what comes ahead.



My daughter is 10 months old. She got something in her mouth today and choked. I had turned my back for a second and the little bugger got something in there. I had to dig it out and comfort her because she was scared. All is well, the rest of the evening went smoothly. She's sleeping safely and soundly in her bed.



And I'm having major anxiety issues. Panic attacks. Flashbacks to the funeral of a friend's baby who choked on something and died in 2010. The funeral. The feeling of not knowing what I'd do if I lost her.



I have an appointment to talk to my doctor. But in the meantime I just need to get through tonight. I don't have a support system at all. My kids are all I really have in the world. I guess I just needed to reach out somewhere someone may understand.

Rain (aka Mama) 3 kids; Monroe, Georgia 6503 posts
May 29th '13
Quoting Mandible:" I have severe social/generalized anxiety. I'm unmediated. I guess that's an odd way to make an introduction. ... [snip!] ... system at all. My kids are all I really have in the world. I guess I just needed to reach out somewhere someone may understand."


It's hard not to be anxious when it comes to scary things like that. I freak out big time when my kids get sick. Even just a stomach ache and I'm terrified it's a symptom of something worse and I'll lose them.



But, I'm glad she's okay. <3 <3