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I think i need help B. R. E 3 kids; 4 angel babies; Far Far Away, Co, United States 1713 posts
Jan 27th

After 4 losses I think it’s time I seek help! My depression has gotten way out of hand!

this weekend is my birthday weekend and I have cried all day both days, my head hurts and my husband has tried taking me out but I just blow up for no damn reason!!!

yesterday he had plans to take my kids and I to dinner, I never went in so we ended up leaving, he had tickets for the rodeo which i love and never miss, I didn’t want to go so we just ended up going home!

on our way home though.... it took everything in me to not open the car door and jump out on the highway! the only thing that stopped me was my kids, I didn’t want them to carry that image with them for the rest of their lives! Had it been just my husband and I I’m pretty sure I would have followed through and jumped out!

im so depressed I just don’t want to be alive, my mom hasn’t called me for a week and a half to see how I’m doing, if the baby passed, if I need anything.... NOTHING! 

I just dont don’t know where to turn to or who to talk to, my husband understands only what I tell him but he can’t feel what I do ..... I’m so lost Very Sad


Britny 4 kids; 1 angel baby; ,, ,, United States 20810 posts
Jan 27th

Please please reach out to a trusted Dr. I take this so serious as I have once been there with suicidal thoughts. Please know you are never alone and that I care about you and so does your husband and children. I know how scarey these moments are and I'm so sorry you're going through it. But please seek help because it does work! I am so sorry for your losses and I don't know the words to say to make that feel any better but I do know it's not your fault and that you will see them one day. If you need anything please message me!

Drew90 Due December 28; 2 kids; 2 angel babies; Hodgdon, ME, United States 7379 posts
Jan 27th

Please call your doctor. I've been there in that dark place but I promise you it does get better! Your family needs you here on this earth, and there is no shame in asking for help,whether its just talking with a therapist or taking meds 

The Original Bob 4 kids; 4 angel babies; <3, CA, United States 38258 posts
Jan 27th

Oh hun you have your family, yourself and you're kids to live for. I know things seem bleak and like they will never happen but this is just a bad time in your life, think about how many more years you have to live, there will be good times and times so amazing that you cant believe they're happening. You dont want to miss those. Please talk to a Dr and let them know how you're feeling. You will get through this. Hang in there! ❤

SomeMommy Due June 18; 4 kids; 1 angel baby; Chicago, IL, United States 73587 posts
Jan 28th

My heart is broken for you. I just want to tell you that right now, it's your lowest. You're at rock bottom. The only place to go from here is up. You may need some help and I think it'd be wise to maybe get some counseling to help you through this. But, you will be okay. You're a strong woman from all that I've seen and I know you don't want to leave your children like that. Keep them in your head always as motivation to keep pushing forward. You will never forget your losses, those babies are yours and they're waiting for you in Heaven. But you have angels here on Earth that still need you. I have no real experience in the type of loss you've experienced but I've been through some things in life where I've felt very, very similar. The ONLY reason I'm still alive right now is my kids too. Years ago, I would have just offed myself but the thought of my girls kept me pushing. Things will get better, you will have happy times again. Until then, it's okay to hurt and grieve but please, don't try to do it alone. Either through us on BG or getting some professional guidance, you will seriously make it through this nightmare <33 You can ALWAYS reach out to me if you need...any time. I try to check into BG all day here and there....I want you to know you are never alone <3 So many hugs <33

marmarissa 2 kids; 2 angel babies; Ottawa, ON, Canada 8252 posts
Jan 28th

I am so sorry. This hurt my heart to read.  Having had those dark thoughts myself, my only advice to you is to seek help. It takes time, but with the right medication or therapy- it does get better. Please don't ever think you're alone in any of this. Be gentle with yourself, you're family needs you. ❤

✩ Silver 101403 posts
Feb 2nd

Thinking of you ❤️

bia. ., ., Portugal 102495 posts
Feb 4th

This hurts my heart to read Very Sad I truly hope you have seeked some help x

B. R. E 3 kids; 4 angel babies; Far Far Away, Co, United States 1713 posts
Feb 5th

Hi ladies,

I am back on antidepressants and am feeling a tad bit better, hopefully way better soon!

I have kept myself busy with my girls and signed them up for basketball and Girl Scouts so I’m running around a lot and keeping my brain busy on other things and not my angels so much Very Sad

Ive also started to do Zumba and get myself back into doing good for my poor body who has gone through so much in such short time.

I will be ok, I know I will especially with your help .... I can’t believe how I feel so much better and much more comfortable talking to complete strangers and not my own mother!

thank you all so much! I truly appreciate all your support during this time 

xoxo

Britny 4 kids; 1 angel baby; ,, ,, United States 20810 posts
Feb 5th

thank you all so much! I truly appreciate all your support during this time 

xoxo


I was so worried about you and I am so happy to see you reply and know youre ok. I am so glad you're on medication and I hope it works quickly and well for you. You're an amazing person and mother don't ever forget that! I'm always here for you. If you want add me on Facebook if you haven't already 
Britny Serna

we are all here for you momma

SomeMommy Due June 18; 4 kids; 1 angel baby; Chicago, IL, United States 73587 posts
Feb 5th

Quoting B. R. E:
Hi ladies,



thank you all so much! I truly appreciate all your support during this time 

xoxo


I'm so glad to hear this. 

All of this will take time. Dealing with it in pieces, not all at once, will probably help. We're always here...someone always is <3

& I can relate to that whole mom thing so well. It's nuts but there are women on here who I consider more like family to me than a good portion of my actual family.

✩ Silver 101403 posts
Feb 5th

I’m so glad to hear that you’re doing better. We are definitely all here for you, anything you need ❤️