..... Needingabreak 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Somewhere, Bg, United States 12127 posts
Aug 30th '16

Gone

Phenomemom 2 kids; Portland, Oregon 3052 posts
Aug 30th '16

I'm glad that you're OK. That's pretty messed up of your friends to not allow you to call for help. I'm sure they were more concerned about getting in trouble for their drugs. Ecstasy does deplete your seratonin and will leave you feeling pretty depressed after. It takes a while to rebuild, hopefully you'll be feeling better.

Needingabreak 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Somewhere, Bg, United States 12127 posts
Aug 30th '16

Quoting Phenomemom: 


Yeah I'm sure that's exactly why they didn't wanna call. That's also why they can piss off. I just want to be out of this dream like state. 

JBL Mommy 4 kids; 1 angel baby; United States 880 posts
Aug 30th '16

Im glad you are ok BUT...how sad for your kids AND your parents. You dump your kids off on your parents to party and do drugs....sad. And you are definitely not a nurse I would want taking care of me or my family. That degree is just a piece of paper. Sorry for the honesty but it sounds like you need to hear it. 

Needingabreak 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Somewhere, Bg, United States 12127 posts
Aug 30th '16

Quoting JBL Mommy :
Im glad you are ok BUT...how sad for your kids AND your parents. You dump your kids off on your parents to party and do drugs....sad. And you are definitely not a nurse I would want taking care of me or my family. That degree is just a piece of paper. Sorry for the honesty but it sounds like you need to hear it. 


Lol f**k yourself it was one time and definitely not planned. I planned to go to the lake house for the night with alcohol invokved, not the other stuff.

☆OGTattedmama07☆ Due July 23; 3 kids; Ghetto, Ca, United States 37036 posts
Aug 30th '16

Quoting JBL Mommy :
Im glad you are ok BUT...how sad for your kids AND your parents. You dump your kids off on your parents to party and do drugs....sad. And you are definitely not a nurse I would want taking care of me or my family. That degree is just a piece of paper. Sorry for the honesty but it sounds like you need to hear it. 


what does she do on the weekends matter for her job? There are a shit ton of nurses who get fucked up and you would never know.


but i will say dropping off the kids to do drugs isn't very responsible but she already knows that .. 

op the feeling will fade, lesson learned. 

Maybe talk to someone about why you felt the need to do all that? Keep yourself from doing it again. 

Milk Machine ✌ 3 kids; 1 angel baby; ,, ,, United States 19888 posts
Aug 30th '16

I mean it's pretty easy to say no....

But glad nothing bad happened

☆OGTattedmama07☆ Due July 23; 3 kids; Ghetto, Ca, United States 37036 posts
Aug 30th '16

Quoting Linziebobinzie:
PLEASE DONT QUOTE
Let me preface this with I have never done anything other than alcohol and pot in my life before this day. So on Thursday I partied way too hard (my kids were with my parents). It started with just alcohol. Then I had some edibles. It spiraled out of control from there. I did blow and molly. I hardly remember anything. I remember taking every ounce of strength in my body to yell for help. I forgot how to talk but my mind was going a mile a minute. I was talking in circles in my head driving myself crazy. I was staring at the clock just concentrating on my breathing at one point. Being a nurse, I knew I was going in to respiratory distress. My respirations were rapid then very slow with periods of apnea. The people I was with (who I will no longer be speaking with) didn't take me seriously when I said I needed help. They even took my phone away when I went to dial 911. I was terrified. So I stared at the clock and told myself to inhale, exhale. Inhale, exhale. I told myself to fight closing my eyes and not to f**king die like this. I had 2 kids at home who need me, inhale, exhale. Eventually I started to "sober up" but I was still tweaking out. I was paranoid until Sunday when I came down really hard at my parents house. I just cried my eyes out and couldn't physically get out of bed. My mom, who knew about the drug use because I told her (but not about the od), took me to the hospital and I ended up going to their psychiatric er. I was discharged later that night and called my old primary doctor up here (since I moved) to go back on my antidepressants. The doctor said the drugs I took made my depression feel worse, which makes sense. I still don't feel normal yet. I'm still in a dream like state. I hope I feel normal again soon cause this really sucks.

Again don't quote. I'm not even sure why I wrote all this out lol maybe just to talk to someone about it


you'll be ok though. 

Needingabreak 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Somewhere, Bg, United States 12127 posts
Aug 30th '16

There's no doubt in my mind that I won't touch the stuff again. I know why I did it, I was overwhelmed by being home alone with my kids 24/7 since I moved to tx and my husband is a truck driver. I drove home to buffalo a couple weeks ago to visit everyone and went overboard. I set up an appointment to go back on my antidepressants and the social worker gave me the resources I need for support groups. I'm really not the type to do drugs. That was a first, honestly, and won't ever happen again. I feel so judged right now because of a mistake I made. Does that really define a person? 

Needingabreak 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Somewhere, Bg, United States 12127 posts
Aug 30th '16

Quoting ☆OGTattedmama07☆:

you'll be ok though. 


Please unquote.

tinana+2 (29w) Due September 6; 2 kids; Orlando, FL, Virgin Islands 45264 posts
Aug 30th '16

Quoting ☆OGTattedmama07☆:

you'll be ok though. 



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Mrs.C+4.5 5 kids; 1 angel baby; Duncan, OK, United States 17728 posts
Aug 30th '16

For future reference do not mix shit like that(not saying you should do it again though lol)!! That could have ended very badly!! Being paranoid and thinking irrational things while doing blow is a very common effect. Your lucky they didn't let you call the police, you could have been arrested and lost your nursing license. I'm glad your ok though. 

Space Jesus 1 child; United States 159 posts
Aug 30th '16

so .. you went to a party to drink, then did some edibles .. okay .. but then were speedballing by the end of the night? you either have really shitty friends or could have underlying addictive patterns that you're not addressing .. 

tinana+2 (29w) Due September 6; 2 kids; Orlando, FL, Virgin Islands 45264 posts
Aug 30th '16

Well, you seem like a liar. 38

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☆OGTattedmama07☆ Due July 23; 3 kids; Ghetto, Ca, United States 37036 posts
Aug 30th '16

Quoting Linziebobinzie:
There's no doubt in my mind that I won't touch the stuff again. I know why I did it, I was overwhelmed by being home alone with my kids 24/7 since I moved to tx and my husband is a truck driver. I drove home to buffalo a couple weeks ago to visit everyone and went overboard. I set up an appointment to go back on my antidepressants and the social worker gave me the resources I need for support groups. I'm really not the type to do drugs. That was a first, honestly, and won't ever happen again. I feel so judged right now because of a mistake I made. Does that really define a person? 


you've never done drugs before and chose to do yay and molly? usually when you are curious and want to try something most people ease into it like take a couple key shots to try it or one molly to see what it's like, honestly if you've done it before its not a big deal if you've stopped then its just a relapse. And none of this defines you as a person, everyone makes mistakes, but you definitely should talk to someone. Being with the kids 24/7 shouldn't make you want to run out and do cocaine and molly.