Today's the day... Amanduuuh 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Texas 5315 posts
May 4th '14

My last post can better explain. 

Today I'm going to visit Jarren. Tomorrow is his birthday but with work I won't be able to go. It's the first time since the year he died that I'm going. I have a c*********k of emotions right now. I wrote him a letter. I will get him a card, balloons and a cupcake (for his dad). I am hoping to get some peace. At least for now. I don't think I will ever be at peace with the situation but I can't change it. 
I have finally been in contact with his dad and sister. It's made me feel a bit better. His dad had to move out of the state. He couldn't stand to be here anymore. His sister lives 3 hours away. His brother lives not far from where he's buried but doesn't come too often. Now I feel bad for saying I feel like they all forgot him... Everyone copes in different ways. 
Its such a nice day today. I really feel like I'm ready to do this. Wish me luck. 

OldSoulBeauty Due June 3 (boy); 2 kids; DipityDooBittyBopBop, WA, United States 4684 posts
May 4th '14

Good luck dear. I read your last post...and wow. No amount of time will take away the hurt. I hope you can find peace, even if its just a little. 

RainbowSprinkles Due March 24; 2 kids; United States 2093 posts
May 4th '14

Good luck <3 I know it's not easy but you will probably feel better after. Mid Happy