I'm around 20 weeks and had an ultrasound yesterday. As soon as I saw the baby on the screen my head just kind of went blank and I wanted to cry but not in a good way. Suddenly I wanted nothing to do with this pregnancy. I had to seriously control myself to not run out of the room covered in ultrasound goop. I was already not very excited, teetering on depressed, but now I'm literally stupefied by grief; I can't sleep, eat, or interact with my daughter the way I should. I feel like my life is over and want to disappear. No judgements please.
Talk to your doctor about this. It's likely hormone related.
Quoting Amelia Margaret:
Talk to your doctor about this. It's likely hormone related.
^What she said^
I wish I had more advice for you OP but I do hope things get better.
I would talk to the doctor about it ASAP.
I totally agree w/the poster above me. Please talk to your doctor. The anxiety & depression you are feeling are serious health hazards for you and baby :(

Yeah, My husband just took on a new job that will put us above the income limit for Medicaid, so I have to decline coverage and be uninsured again. I'm going to have to cancel my next appointment because we can't pay out of pocket.
Quoting Miss Wolf:
Yeah, My husband just took on a new job that will put us above the income limit for Medicaid, so I have to decline coverage and be uninsured again. I'm going to have to cancel my next appointment because we can't pay out of pocket.
are u sure about the income guidelines? when u are pregnant they count the pregnancy as a family member so u go by the income of a 4 person household. Also if you already have Medicaid for pregnancy than it usually lasts till baby is born to prevent any lapse in coverage if your income/insurance situation changes. They also deduct the cost of medical bills from the wages before calculating household income
Sorry. You might need to talk to your dr and get on anti depressants. This pregnancy wasn't planned but I was okay until around 12 weeks. Then I suddenly got really distant, didn't want to baby shop....couldn't interact with the baby, had no emotions whatsoever. I didn't end up getting medicine but I knew it was because I suffer from depression anyways. I'm just trying to fight it and I feel better about the pregnancy now. I'm 27 weeks.

Quoting 6 blessings so far....:
are u sure about the income guidelines? when u are pregnant they count the pregnancy as a family member so u go by the income of a 4 person household. Also if you already have Medicaid for pregnancy than it usually lasts till baby is born to prevent any lapse in coverage if your income/insurance situation changes. They also deduct the cost of medical bills from the wages before calculating household income
Yes, I'm definitely sure. I will be covered under his insurance by not till January.

Quoting Trey&Genesis'momma:
Sorry. You might need to talk to your dr and get on anti depressants. This pregnancy wasn't planned but I was okay until around 12 weeks. Then I suddenly got really distant, didn't want to baby shop....couldn't interact with the baby, had no emotions whatsoever. I didn't end up getting medicine but I knew it was because I suffer from depression anyways. I'm just trying to fight it and I feel better about the pregnancy now. I'm 27 weeks.
I also have a genetic predisposition towards depression and experienced it for a few weeks pretty bad with my first, but nothing to this degree. I've needed therapy for a long time but have never been able to afford it.
Quoting Miss Wolf:
I also have a genetic predisposition towards depression and experienced it for a few weeks pretty bad with my first, but nothing to this degree. I've needed therapy for a long time but have never been able to afford it.
I'm sorry to hear that. :( Are you doing any better? Not to pry but how good of an income does your SO have? Bc I know here, the counseling group I go to, if a person doesn't have insurance and can't afford regular payments will work with you and set up a very low payment for each session. Maybe you could do something like that so you get the therapy you need. Hope you get some help soon. Hang in there. I know how rough it can be to experience depression during pregnancy. Hugs <3

Quoting Trey&Genesis'momma:
I'm sorry to hear that. :( Are you doing any better? Not to pry but how good of an income does your SO have? Bc I know here, the counseling group I go to, if a person doesn't have insurance and can't afford regular payments will work with you and set up a very low payment for each session. Maybe you could do something like that so you get the therapy you need. Hope you get some help soon. Hang in there. I know how rough it can be to experience depression during pregnancy. Hugs <3
Sorry for the late response, I haven't been getting on here as much (like a lot of others) since the change. Really sucks how this community has kind of started over! Anyway, I'm able to eat again & sleeping is like 50/50, so that's an improvement I suppose, but emotionally I'm kind of in the same spot. My husband just got a new job which pays well (hence why I was disqualified from Medicaid) but I live in such a hodunk retirement community with no resources for pregnant women.
I have my first real doctors appointment this week, so I guess I'll run some things by him, although i expect to leave he office more depressed than when I came in. At the clinic where I go, they treat me like another cow running through the slaughter machine.
Quoting Miss Wolf:
Sorry for the late response, I haven't been getting on here as much (like a lot of others) since the change. Really sucks how this community has kind of started over! Anyway, I'm able to eat again & sleeping is like 50/50, so that's an improvement I suppose, but emotionally I'm kind of in the same spot. My husband just got a new job which pays well (hence why I was disqualified from Medicaid) but I live in such a hodunk retirement community with no resources for pregnant women.
I have my first real doctors appointment this week, so I guess I'll run some things by him, although i expect to leave he office more depressed than when I came in. At the clinic where I go, they treat me like another cow running through the slaughter machine.
Oh that really sucks :( I'm sorry. I hope you get/got answers from your dr though at least. I know how you're feeling, I really do. I don't feel like anyone truly understands what I'm going through right now. Plz hang in there. <3