i still feel like a horrible parent... LIVE.OUT.LOUD Due July 11 (boy); 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Lawrenceville, Georgia 1624 posts
Jul 17th '13

After I had ds2 I had severe PPD. I didn't feel anything towards him. I hated waking up with him, I didn't want to hold him, ever, I wanted nothing to do with him. I feel so horrible for feeling this way... I started seeing a therapist when he was about a month old. He was about 5 months when I finally got through my PPD. He is 20 months now and is precious baby! I would do anything for him. But he doesn't seem too interested in me. He has clinged to dh and doesn't really want to do much with me.. I feel like this is my fault.. Like he doesn't like me because he instinctively knows I had a rough time when he was first born... Am I just overreacting? I feel like such a horrible parent..

user banned Due April 6; TTC since Nov 2010; 1 child; New Vegas, NV, United States 4194 posts
Jul 17th '13

You aren't horrible.
Try and schedule some time for you and him to go out and play at the park or something. Even though he's little just spend lotsa time with him and not BD

Cat Abbott 2 kids; British Columbia 1389 posts
Jul 17th '13

He likes you, honest. You're not a horrible parent. Kids will often form a primary attachment to one parent more than the other for different reasons, none of which are an indication of bad parenting. Don't be so hard on yourself! Your son loves you and knows you love him, he's just a daddy's boy right now. No big deal (although I'm sure it doesn't feel that way).

Squid Kid Unavailable, NA, United States 32450 posts
Jul 17th '13

All babies go through that phase, PPD or not.