PPD or regular baby blues? BG Secrets Arizona 4906 posts
Jul 2nd '13

I am less than 2 weeks PP and I feel horrible. I feel I have no bond with my baby even though I wanted her so badly. I know I love her but I really don't feel like I do. My fiance is taking time off to be with us and whenever he leaves the room for more than 5 minutes I find myself sobbing or wanting to cry because I feel HORRIBLE that I don't feel motherly or lovey towards her. I don't really feel like she is even my baby. I have sick sick thoughts about her like I wouldn't care if she would die. It makes me so f**king sad to even say such a horrible thing. Then other times I'll just start crying and the thought goes through my head that I WILL kill myself. Then it passes and I don't want to die but there are moments where I feel like it is so decided that I am going to die. Before you ask, no. I have no thoughts to hurt my daughter at all. Just myself and that I possibly don't care about her. Is this normal and it will pass or does it sound like I need to see someone soon? Please please please no judgement. I feel absolutely horrible as it is.

Sarah +2 ♥ 2 kids; Hollywood, FL, United States 11222 posts
Jul 2nd '13

You should talk to someone. The feelings can go away.

lacTAYtor. ☮ 3 kids; North Carolina 4500 posts
Jul 2nd '13

You should definitely see your DR. These feelings can be treated.

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I hope you feel better soon. Good luck!

BG Secrets Arizona 4906 posts
Jul 2nd '13

Has anyone had these feelings and it been nothing?

IVA1983 Due December 11; Japan 1 posts
Jul 2nd '13

I would see adoctor A.S.A.P.

Bad Things Blacksburg, SC, United States 21466 posts
Jul 2nd '13
Quoting BG Secrets:" Has anyone had these feelings and it been nothing?"

I felt like that to an extent. Not so much about the baby, but about myself (that I wasnt worthy enough of being his mom and I should die, etc.)

Mine only last two-three days max.

If I were you, I would talk to a doctor. It would best to treat it fast so it doesnt ruin the entire newborn stage for you. Hopefully you are better soon. Try to always surround yourself with family/ close friends in the meantime until you can get seen.

Donna Reisner 1 child; Alabama 437 posts
Jul 2nd '13

I had this problem for like 3 months after my daughter was born..I felt like I didn't want her, I didn't want anything to do with her, and I thought so many times that we should give her up for adoption. My husband pretty much took care of her during that whole time. I felt terrible, but I ended up going to mental health, they put me on medication.I stopped taking it because I couldn't afford it. The feelings eventually went all I want is to spend every second with her. So maybe you should talk to someone. Things will get better:)

Mommyof2B 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Torrance, California 2917 posts
Jul 2nd '13

Yup I was the same way for the first 2 months or so. I was never attach to him, felt like he wasn't mine, was thinking of giving him up for adoption, and thinking of hurting him as well which I never did. All I did was just sat on the couch and cry every single day. It's not PPD but baby blues and I never seek any help at all nor did I took any meds for it. Eventually the baby blues went away but I suffer PPD for after that.

Now my son is a 2 year old and I could never see myself giving him up to anyone or even hurting him. I love him way too much and now I'm so attach to him that I can't even go anywhere without him :D

Lolalaloosh 1 child; Plymouth, United Kingdom 1649 posts
Jul 15th '13

I was like this for 4 months after my baby was born - I wanted her to go away and let me recover. I blamed her for how bad I felt and I was angry that she had changed my life so much. I thought about suicide a lot and got very emotional and aggressive with my partner. I went to the drs 3 times to say I thought I was going mad and no one listened my health visitor then referred me to a PPD group that I attended for 12 weeks and my daughter is now 8 months old and she is now my absolute everything I adore her and love her in a way I have never experienced before and she is the best thing that has ever happened to me. You can change he way you think you just have to do something about it and the first step is realising how you are feeling and you have done that so well done.