I think i have a bad case of PPD.
I'm not suicidal or have thoughts against my daughter but here's why I think I have it:
I have no self worth. I think i look like a fat ugly old b***h when I look in the mirror. I'm 22 and my neighbors thought I was 28-32 and I don't get carded at gas stations anymore for smokes.
I randomly cry. Like today while I was feeding my daughter.
I don't feel like a mother to my 2 children.
All my husband wants, is sex (he's admitted he's a sex addict) and I have no sex drive AT ALL.
I also feel like I've done nothing but clean and take care of the children for 4 weeks and his excuse it "I work"
Me and him fight ALL the time. I even told him the other day that "I feel like a big, fat, free hooker that gives him free housekeeping and nanny services"
My SIL is in labor right now and for the past 6 weeks since my daughter was born, it's been nothing but about HER with my husbands family. Hell, my daughter was 2 weeks old on easter and my SIL held her once and then gave her to her MIL and said "Here's a practce baby" and laughed. She then spent the rest of the hour we were there showing off her f**king expensive nursery because they have money.
I feel like I'm not giving my children a good enough life because I don't have a high class job like my SIL and her husband have. (Shes a high business person for a casino, and he's a head manager for Pepsi) So we don't have money flying out the ass like she does.
I live around HIS family only and I feel so freaking alone it's not funny. My family live in all directions 3+ hours away and all he does is defend his family.
I enjoyed doing crafts and now I have no drive to do ANY of it. I sit at my computer or sit on the couch in a daze and forget the world around me.
I might be over exagerating but I just feel like me and my daughter have been put on the back burner and I don't want to live around here anymore.
If you were diagnosed with PPD, what did they do?
Quoting Supafly★:" Minus the sex part, I could have written this entire thing. Especially about my SIL. She's due in May ... [snip!] ... they will set you up with therapy and if they feel you need medication, you will also be given a psychiatrist appointment. "
I just feel like they are rubbing it in my face. I don't want therapy, my husband wants me to get help. I just want to be a lifeless f**k so I don't have to fight or think about anything anymore.
Quoting Supafly★:" Therapy will really help. Maybe medication, too. Are you stuck around them for awhile or you guys have plans to live somewhere else?"
He refuses to move a driving distance from them. But I have live hours away from mine. The bad thing is, I wouldn't want to move too far because his mother is our babysitter when were both at work.
honestly it doesnt sound like ppd just regular depression caused by the douchebags you have to put up with
Quoting Supafly★:" Oh okay, that makes sense. Are you working now? "
I'm still on leave. I go back on the 6th
Quoting Supafly★:" That will help a lot, trust me. You'll miss your baby but getting out of the house and interacting with people who don't make you feel like crap will help those feelings go away. "
Yeah I'm looking forward to it. lol