So I think I'm going to take my doctors (and many of you) advice and finally go see a therapist about possibly having PTSD.
I thought I was starting to get past this but this last week I have been ridiculous. The nightmares are still a nightly thing and with that I'm still not sleeping well (hell my whole staff at work even commented on it today at work). And now I'm lashing out at people.
My kids, friends, people I don't know, etc. And for no reason at all. :(
I don't even notice it until after I've done it. Like, yesterday I was at work and was just a huge b***h to everyone and didn't realize it until my boss took me to the side and asked me what's wrong. :(
I don't feel like myself anymore. I've tried getting myself out of the house a few times and I enjoyed it but as soon as I got home or was by myself I started feeling sad again.
Yesterday was the first time in my life that I felt like if I could just fall asleep and never wake up again that it wouldn't effect anything. I know the way I'm feeling is wrong but I'm scared to get put on some pill and I don't see how talking to someone I don't know will help.
But I've got to TRY something. I can't keep acting like this. I'm going to loose my job and the people I love if I can't get out of this mess :(
Do it Hun. You went through a traumatizing experience. There's no game in getting help. I had to get help for mine. I was already on antidepressants but I got therapy in addition and it helped a lot.
Sometimes it's easier to open up to someone you don't know because they're not involved in the situation. So they're not judging you or they're not hurting too badly to listen to your pain or whatever. They can look at it from an outside perspective and listen with a completely clean slate.
You may or may not need medication, but that also doesn't mean that you'd be on it for the rest of your life either. You may need something to get you through this period of adjustment and then wean back off of it. You'll never know unless you try, so I'm happy you're going to see what's available to help you get through this.
Thanks guys. I really do need to do this. It just sucks. Most of the time I still just feel like it was a dream and that my sister is going to call me and ask me to watch him again. :(
I have PTSD....I really, really think that seeking help for it was the BEST thing I could have done for myself and my family. I am in therapy once a week, and take 20mg of Viibryd daily - it helps with depression AND anxiety. I never knew how good I had the potential to feel...If I had known life could be this good, I would have done it so much sooner. I can sleep, I can...function. Do it, you'll be SO glad you did.
I went through it.. Atleast your noticing it because I didn't or I didn't want to believe it.. Talk to a therapist. You might need medication or you might just need someone to talk to...