Quoting The Andromeda Strain:" I was going to post this under BG Secrets, but as much as I'm ashamed by this, I know there has to be ... [snip!] ... and TIA for any advice... Before anyone says this, I can't seek therapy right now. I would really like to, but I just can't."
As someone else said, a journal helps. I can write things I HATE to admit, but it helps me "let go" of it. I have a journal on livejournal, if you ever want to join up as friends on there let me know :) A lot of my stuff lately is private, but I have a fair amount of friends posts :)
OP, do you go to college?
my school offers free counseling sessions to students.
Oh hunny... I wish you would tell me these things. I have felt like this for so long. I'm not going to go into it in your thread but like I've said before, anytime you need to talk, I'm always here. And you have my number! You can call/text me anytime you need to talk.
Quoting Captain Obvious:" OP, do you go to college? my school offers free counseling sessions to students."
My local community college finally has a complete online campus, so I finally start back in the Summer term. I'm pretty sure they don't have that option there...my mom worked there and I never heard of anything like this being offered.
A quick view into why I can't get a doctor atm:
I was on my mom's insurance (only 21). She had a massive stroke and is in the process of getting on disability. She'll be on government insurance and her FIMLA runs out sometime this week, so I won't have enough time to even make an appointment, let alone get legitimate help.
As much as I hate to say it, I'll probably try to apply for state assistance with health insurance once that happens.
I can't believe how much your story describes my life....