Ill sleep when I am dead... *Mary Moon* 1 child; New York 3606 posts
Jan 16th '13

I had/have insomnia. Every once in a great while I get a wild hair up my ass to stay up all night, sometimes more than one night. I usually go to bed extremely late and cat nap on occasion but I can tell a shit storm is coming when I feel wide awake at 2am. I know that once that happens it takes me weeks to get my sleep schedule in order. I stayed up all night for two months this past year and slept from 8am to 11am somedays. I was working at the time too, with a baby who didnt sleep through the night. It was extremely mentally exhausting. No. It was sickening.
I want to take a trazadone but I hate the idea of sleeping late (SO was off tues and has tonight off too so he can get up with LO). I just hate it.
No matter how little stimulation I give myself at night, no matter how early I go to bed, how dark it is, how little caffiene I get, how much activity I do...nothing helps...except sleep meds. At a year old DS is still too little to take them if I am alone at night (SO works overnights). Even melatonin is too much for me. That knocks me out too. As far as me staring into this screen, I'm just pissing in the wind. Trust me when I say not using it at night or getting off right now and shutting down would not help. This is just passing the time. I hope I get tired soon.
Vent end.