I hate being PP Mom2William&Michael 2 kids; 1 angel baby; New York 7600 posts
Dec 6th '12

I feel like a f**king lunatic and I hate it.
I forgot how bad having a newborn stresses me out. I'm freaking out over jaundice and his breastfeeding. I'm always thinking, is he sleeping too much? Is his head in a good position? Did I burp him enough, is he going to have gas? Is this position safe?
And then there's everything else. I can't seem to keep our home clean no matter how hard I try right now. I'm worried that DS isn't getting enough attention from me right now.
I have finals in a week and I'm trying to get all of the work done. Most of that is easy as could be, but I have a math final on Tuesday and I've been struggling with it all semester. I feel like I'm undeniably going to fail and lose my scholarship and I won't graduate because of it.
I just keep crying and crying and I can't stand it and it makes me cry even more.
I know that I signed up for all of this and it's normal but f**k, I want to feel normal.

~Cullen & Ridley's Mommy~ 3 kids; 3 angel babies; Missouri 18928 posts
Dec 6th '12

I understand how you feel completely! This is how I have felt the past few weeks, DD is almost 4 weeks now and I still have points during the day that I just want to break down. My house is a disaster, DS is acting out because I am finding it difficult to balance my time between him, DD, breastfeeding, pumping, doctors appointments, the house, cooking and about 10,000 other different things.

nothingness Arizona 3578 posts
Dec 6th '12

I'm with ya! It's not easy. I have 5 finals next week. Papers, projects, and tests. LO is 6 weeks and I'm completely winging this I have no clue if I'm doing good. I just clean one area a day I don't bother trying to do the whole thing. As far as school I have no clue how I'm holding up but I'm pushing myself. You gotta keep the reward in mind, and not just the struggle and work. You're doing just fine! I keep telling myself as long as LO is alive and not screaming I must be doing ok