Pointless Rant user banned
Nov 11th '12

I'm sorry. This is going to sound absolutely ridiculous rant. I've tired, I've REALLY tried not to whine on BG lately, but I'm such a mess right now. I can't stop crying, I just want to hold my face in a pillow and f**king sob.

I feel like I'll be alone forever.

I hate looking in the mirror. My face is disgusting. My body is disgusting. Everything about me is just completely awful. I have progressive decay, so I look like a f**king meth head the way my teeth are.

My health is shit, my personality is shit, everything about me is just complete and utter shit.

I just want to have someone there, anyone, even a friend, just to have them be here right now so I wasn't alone.

But I've officially chased off everyone that matters to me.

I have felt lonely, and detattched, but this is something brand new.

I feel like I'm completely f**king empty and I'll never feel a part of something bigger than myself again.

I just really don't want to be alone anymore..I'm so tired of being alone.

Tash+1 1 child; Canton, Ohio 7839 posts
Nov 11th '12

You're beautiful! PM me if you need someone to talk to.

I had a BabyBumpBelly 1 child; American Fork, Utah 34389 posts
Nov 11th '12

<3 You are beautiful no matter what you say.

user banned 33 kids; Blytheville, Arkansas 7534 posts
Nov 11th '12
Quoting Chelsea Dawns Mama:" You're beautiful! PM me if you need someone to talk to."

I'll never feel like it and talking doesn't help.

Sweetheart...* Due July 30 (girl); 1 child; Florida 1290 posts
Nov 11th '12

Have you tried talking to a psychologist or counselor? It sounds like you are severely depressed. I wish I could help! Good luck! <3 pm me if you need someone to chat with!

XDaniGirl 2 kids; Fayetteville, Arkansas 1407 posts
Nov 12th '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:</b>" I'll never feel like it and talking doesn't help. "</blockquote>

You make think talking doesn't help but sometimes it does and you just don't realize it (: if you need to vent or whine PM me (: