April 16th 2012 at 2 am a doctor in the hospital (long story why I was there) walked in and told me I was expecting. It was the best but yet most terrible news id ever gotten. My whole life all I've wanted is to be a mommy. Here was my chance but with being 18, not done with high school, no job,and no drivers license how could I support myself and my baby? I thought me and my fiancee would find a way so I told him and we talked about names to relieve stress, Safira for a girl or Kalcifer for a boy. I was so excited but when I got home it hit me truley how could I raise a baby? After days and hours of research I knew I could not keep my child so it was down to open adoption, or abortion. I chose abortion and my fiancee told me he would support me through it even though he wanted us to keep it. May 14th 2012 was the day I gave up my baby my fiancee held my hand until I got called from the waiting room I watched the ultra sound and I almost left because there was my beautiful angel growing inside me but instead I laid down and let the procedure happen. I prayed to God to take care of my baby until I could have my angel and raise them the right way I cryed and cryed until it was over. After recovery I went back to my fiancee and I've regretted my choice ever since couldn't I have found a way? Shouldn't I have given a deserving family my angel? I'm so lost and I would love to hear others stories or advice
u are very strong! there is no way i could do it nor to i believe in it but if u knew u couldnt raise it thats ur choice. Im glad u had someone there to support u
Thank you, but honestly I wonder if abotion was the cowards way out. I've never believed in doing this ever but I am happy my fiancee's been so fantastic through all of this.
maybe not the coward way out but i have a feeling if u kept the baby and chose adoption one u would of felt the baby start moving and giving birth u would of wanted to keep it. yea it would of been hard but u would of had 9 months to get everything u needed to do done! that includes getting ur DL and a job and saving! it would of been tuff and u could of done it!! Im glad u have someone standing by u and lettin u know everything is going to be alright!!
Thats true i guess one day ill have my baby though. Knowing me i would of wanted to keep it i dunno maybe it was the right choice or maybe i was wrong
:( I'm sorry that you're so remorsful. I promise you, it does get better! You did what was right for you, and that makes you one strong lady. One day when you are done school and you have a career, a husband, a house and a car and you do finally become a mommy you will thank yourself for waiting until the time was right. PM me if you ever need to talk. :)
Hey I made an account just to reply to this.. Lol sounds creepy kinda actually. But anyways I got preggers right before my 19th bday which was also my first year of college.. To a guy I barely knew(now fianc
Thank you Nicole I truley do hope it gets better soon
Cocoblack I'm so sorry for what you went through that sounds so horribe I haven't felt much like living here lately I have my ultrasound picture and I don't think I've really been able to keep myself from crying every time I look at it just waking up and not feeling nausea has upset me so terribly I hope it starts to get better soon just right now I don't see how it will and that isn't creepy its actually very nice there aren't many people left in the world that are willing to be nice to strangers
Quoting VictoriaLynn13:" April 16th 2012 at 2 am a doctor in the hospital (long story why I was there) walked in and told me I ... [snip!] ... found a way? Shouldn't I have given a deserving family my angel? I'm so lost and I would love to hear others stories or advice"
Ohh no problem.. After I went thru everything I tried to gets real with it alone and I wished someone could have talked to me and told me their story so I didn't feel so lonely.. So I try to share with others now so they know it's somethin u can totally get through :)